Inside my head

So .... let's see how this goes

2011-06-22T22:23:00.002-05:00

After being hacked last week I am feeling very leery of posting on here. Nothing like biting the bullet and getting it over with though is there?

I've been super busy of late. Working two places, taking a class and just trying to stay sane is what's overwhelming my life right now. Oh and trying to make myself healthier.

So far everything is going really well. I wish I didn't have to go to Robinson to work, I wish I was working full time at Cvs and getting paid for it, but my goal for June is almost completed(!) and it hasn't been that extremely hard.

It hasn't been a cake walk.... lots of walking involved but..... so, so far for June I've lost 4lbs, and my goal for this month was to see 5 off, so nearly there. I have this last week and we'll see how it all ends up. Gotta say though I'm really excited with just the 4.

Been trying to get my girls from high school to get together, but they are all proving very stubborn. I mean I know they all have busy lives too, but it can't hurt to at least drop me a line and say "hey not going to be able to make it this year, can't wait for next though!" or something is it?!?!?

I thought not.

Welp, that's all I got right now. Just a short one to try out the new passworded blog.... fingers crossed.

ps, sorry everyone had to see all of that on here. That was just ridiculous

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Sometimes I just can't beat myself.

2011-06-06T06:36:00.002-05:00

So I know I need exercise to make this diet thing work.

It's just something I personally need.

I know this.

And yet, I have yet to do it. I always have intentions of doing it, but I never do. And I always blame my lack of motivation on my sleep patterns. I just don't like to get up, especially to exercise! And because I never was able to get up early enough to do it, I never have enough time to fit it into my day, never mind that I'm usually off some what early-ish, it's far to hot to do it then.

So it has to be my sleep pattern.

It's just gotta be.

So, last night I set my alarm early and was determined that I would not just hit snooze and sleep through my work out time (although personally I think that was my exact plan... somewhere deep in the lazy recesses of my brain)

However...

I woke up this morning 45 minutes before the alarm was even supposed to go off.

umm......

Shoot!

There went my theory about what causes my laziness.

Cause it's apparently not the part of my brain that wants sleep. Because I also dreamed about, well, not about exercising but the equipment I use. So.... my subconscious clearly is on board with the exercise idea.

That means it's me that's being lazy.

Bummer.

There goes that excuse.

Oh and as I'm writing this, I still have 15 minutes til that alarm is supposed to be getting me up to exercise. Foiled again!!

Facts of last week : I didn't do to badly eats wise, but I didn't knock it out either, and I just keep not logging. Bad bad Kara! I didn't gain but I didn't lose either. Stayed exactly the same. Frustration. But still it wasn't a gain so I should be happy.

Now I'm off to exercise... I hope.

It's been a wild one

2011-05-28T12:10:00.004-05:00

So this week has been something else.

Let's start with the good news.

Lost 2.2 lbs, super excited about that.

Found out that my petition (that I didn't actually petition) has approved and I now get money for my summer courses!! Really super excited about that!

....

Okay that might be all the good news....

Oh wait! Got gas for $3.78!! Guy at the pump next to me was chatting me up, which was weird but hey.... and the very best news of all, although not for other people? It went up the next day. Yay good timing! At least for me!

Oh and Friday was jean day! So yeah got to wear jeans to work! (really good thing as I didn't do laundry and was out of khakis)

I think that really is all of the good news.

We had that crazy storm front go through.... I mean seriously how insane was that thing? It was stretched almost entirely top to bottom across the US. How nutty is that?! We didn't really have any damage. In fact I don't think any damage. Some poor flowers lost their petals but that would have happened anyway.

Work has been crazy, people stocking up on lanterns and oil and ice and just about everything else under the sun because they were with out power. And then they all came back to buy tons of stuff for Memorial Day weekend! Nuts I tell ya nuts! You hardly get a break, and you go home tired!

So I was a bit naughty this week on WW because I haven't been logging my food... and I've been dessert crazy. But I have since corrected the matter. That's right, like a good kid I went back and logged everything that I ate! Because well..... I do better when I see those numbers staring me down.

And now today (Saturday) me and the rents are going to go to Charleston, because we just can't stay home.

And that's the long and short of it.

Hope you had a good week!

Lates!

I feel it keenly

2011-05-18T15:37:00.003-05:00

So I had an interview for a pharmacy tech position in Robinson yesterday.

It went well, even though I hated having to do it. Interviewing just always feels so awkward. Having to think up instances of various scenarios is just difficult.

But I did it, I went for it. Which meant that I had to "give up" my internship. It's not like I had to call up the place and tell them that I won't be coming, but I was prepared to for go it.

And was almost looking forward to it. Tuition will be cheaper without the internship to pay for and there would only be travel in one direction.

Had a short shift to work today.

Started out okay... if you count that I thought I started at 9 and it was actually 9:30, oh well just means that I get to sit in the back and read until it's time to start.

That was only really bad thing, it was busy most of the time which is always tiring but it was still a good day.

Then Brandon came over and asked to speak to me. I had an inkling that it wasn't going to be something I really wanted to hear.

So he said I did a really good job in the interview, that he thinks I'd do really well in a pharmacy, that if they get another opening that he definitely wanted me to come in and work with them. But that they were going with one of the other applicants.

Sad face here.

I mean I'm pretty sure that I know the girl who got it. And she totally deserves it, also she lives much closer to the store and seems to me that it's kind of a better situation for her to be in.

I can still do my internship. Of course I'll have to pay for it. And I don't know where I'm going to work. And I'll have to do way more driving. But all in all I'm sure it'll be okay.

At least that's what I'm trying to tell myself.

I'm really disappointed. And it's making me sort of angry, the poor cat is probably sulking because I kept scolding him quite forcefully. It's not his fault he's a cat and wouldn't stop meowing.... but it was annoying me.

But I'm disappointed. And it's making me want to eat ten cookies... luckily there aren't any cookies for me to eat.

Okay... I don't really want to eat ten cookies..... but it's making me want to relieve my frustration some how. And apparently that means I want to do something destructive.

I need my mother to come home so we can walk or something. Something where I am exerting frustrated energy.

It's amazing how something that I wasn't even 100% convinced I wanted to do, is bumming me out when I don't get it.

Ah well.

That's life for you I guess.

Good and bad.

And who knows, I may really love the internship in Olney, and it may become something permanent. Anything is possible.

Now the question is do I try and transfer back to Olney (where it sounds like things are rather rough right now) or do I see about finding a job somewhere else.

Choices choices.

Do things like that ever effect your diet? Because I feel like it really could mine.

I guess I'll just have to try and make sure if it does effect me it's in a positive way.

Lates.

I'm counting on you...

2011-05-17T10:18:00.003-05:00

to help hold me accountable!

I am back on the band wagon kids.

I know I fall off it a lot, but I feel a genuine motivation to try again. Before it was more of a feeling of having to do it, and that's never good for me.

So, here we go.

I got the new Weight Watchers app on my phone, which I'm totally loving. Really glad it's there because now I can enter points and everything right away. Instead of having to wait until I get home (which I never did btw)

With my potential job I can have walking buddies again! Which is always a great thing. I managed a few times on my own when the weather was so nice but then I lost it again.

And all in all I just have a better mind set. Which is probably the biggest hurdle for me. If I don't want to eat healthy then I won't.

But... the thing is, I know I'll still be tempted to sneak "bad" things every now and again. Which wouldn't be horrible if it didn't send me down a very dark bad trail. And I know I'll be tempted to slack off, which means that I could still be losing weight but not as effectively as could be happening. The other thing that I'll need to be held accountable on is keeping up with the program, not getting discouraged when things don't go perfectly. And if/when I meet my final goal to still be aware of my weight. Because I really don't want to yo-yo the rest of my life, or to only yo. (go one direction and one direction only)

So your task, should you choose to accept it (and you should I need help) is to hold me accountable. Check up with me to see if I've been behaving on the plan, if I've been working out, if I'm still motivated.

My goals stand as thus:

lose 5lbs

have lost 25lbs

lose 5lbs

have lost 50lbs

lose 5lbs

Reach final goal!!

That's how this thing is gonna go down!

Also there is no time limit on this whole thing, typically I would want to be at a certain weight by a certain date and that's a sure fire way to fail, it's just way to much pressure.

I think every week I'll try to post at least once about whether or not I've followed the program as I'm supposed too. And once I set up an exercise regimen I'll post about how that went too.

And I know that I've said a lot of these things before, but that's where you come in again!

At least if you want too....

please?!

Lates!

Just being a little vain here

2011-03-04T21:54:00.002-06:00

I mean it's not like I created the background or header....

But can I just say that I am seriously loving both! They are so awesome! In my oh so humble opinion.

My room is essentially clean, I need some more storage type things... or I need to figure out how to re-organize things so everything fits.

But what I really really want to do still.... Paint!!! I really want to get this room painted!

However I want to wait for some really nice days when I can open the windows up so the fumes don't harm anyone, and I need at least a couple of days off so I can... well... paint.

But until I can finish the make over to my room, which is almost finished, I happily look at my made over blog. It tides me over.

This blog post by the way.... has been entirely pointless.

Just me babbling to relieve the pressure of having flown through my Medical Terminology Midterm. Which I got a 90% on thanks very much.

Anywho, lates!

As if...

2011-03-02T20:37:00.003-06:00

being a girl and having to deal with girl.... stuff, ..... ya know... OH FINE! make me say it, period.

As if that wasn't bad enough, I've decided to torture my self a little more.

One, I'm back on the wagon, that's right following weightwatchers rules and trying to eat right.

So that's not exactly bad, per say. Just kinda hard.

What's actually really hard is that I am trying to drop caffeine. Wicked hard, especially for me because I do so enjoy caffeine. I love Mt. Dew and Pepsi and Coke and Crush, it's all so tasty. Also I love tea and chocolate, which also has good ol caffeine in it, not as bad as soda but it's still in there.

So not feeling super great, limiting myself on what I can and cannot eat and now.... splitting headache, all because of the caffeine.

However.

I am going to be a grown up about this and not complain.... overly.... cause I know I've already mentioned it, and I know I most likely will again. But I won't whine and moan.... er... I'll try not to.

Wish me luck.

Lates

And to think that I saw it on Mulberry Street!

2011-03-01T17:12:00.004-06:00

Okay, to be fair, I think that street intersection is actually Jackson, but Seuss has such a way with words, it's hard to top that line.... so ..... yeah anyway.

O...

OM....

OM with a CAPITOL G!!!!

I don't know that I have laughed this hard in a long long time.

It was one of those laughs where you cry, and possibly develop the hiccups just because you are laughing so hard!

Today.... today I saw it. One of the most..... epic things I have ever seen!

Imagine if you will, a Hillbilly, hick, country bumpkin. The type that has the long snaggle tooth that he runs his tongue down as he says "Heh, your sure is purdy." . The type that wears a mesh belly tank in summer not because it's hot outside, but because it's hot, as in uber attractive, and has a mullet that's getting a little thin in the front so he wears a baseball cap at all times. The type that can nail a fly at 50 paces with the spit from his chew. The one that has the beat up huge gas guzzling Ford truck with the odd plastic purple McDonald's Grimace glued on as a hood ornament. Okay... you with me?

Now.... imagine this guy, Billy Joe Jim Bob, jammin, and I mean 'shaking his truck he's so into it' jammin, to NSYNC's: 'It's gonna be me'. And least you think that perhaps it was a random song on the radio, oh no! It was a cd, I heard the next song starting!! And he was still dancing!

It was glorious! Simply one of the most elegant things I've seen!

I think I might have peed a little I was laughing so hard. And let me tell you it's hard to laugh that hard and try to look like you aren't. I mean, the dude clearly was enjoying himself, and who am I to detract from such a simple pleasure?

If only, ah if only I could have captured on film. I would be entering it right now to AOTS's around the net. It was too die for!

Side note, I can't actually say the guy wears mesh shirts, or has a receding hair line, or says purdy, or can preform the spit/fly trick, I can only speculate. BUT the rest of the story? All true! Allllll gloriously true!!

It's a skill

2011-02-24T19:30:00.002-06:00

I'm really good at digging in and deep cleaning..... I mean not all the time, but when I'm just fed up with it all and can't stand the state of filth anymore... I'm really good about getting in there, and over the years I've gotten a lot better at actually throwing stuff out in these rare cleaning times, I used to just find a new spot to store it. So that's also good.

But

What I'm really good at, is taking breaks from cleaning. I mean I will be hard at it for a couple of hours and then.... why I'm hot, clearly it's time for an hour break to go sit on the couch and sip nice cold water.

But after that break it's always so hard to get back into the swing of cleaning. Ya know?

Yeah, me too.

So here I am... I'm sure it's no surprise to you at this point.

I'm taking a break!

Never mind that we just got back from supper and I helped mom with her homework cause she has a headache, and that the only thing I did was take the bedding down to be washed and sorted laundry to be done.

It's time for a break.

It's a skill I have... taking breaks.

Happy break to you!

Getting ready for an overhaul.........

2011-02-18T11:00:00.002-06:00

Warning bemoaning and potentially grossness ahead!!

2010-11-14T00:27:00.004-06:00

It's never more apparent to me just how weak I am, than when I am in extreme pain.

It's glaringly obvious just how much of a baby I am in these moments.

I like to think that I am a calm, cool, collected person. But really in the face of discomfort I turn into another entity entirely. My emotions are running towards a very short fuse, making it dangerous to say things that will make me angry. Also I tend to feel very bad for myself, rather pathetic really.

In point of fact, I am lying here writing this, and when I happen to misspell a word or the site isn't running as fast as I want it to, my fingers can't jab the correcting buttons any harder, either the button or my finger would break. And that would just make me more pathetic.

And don't mistake me, it is pathetic.

I am trying really hard to not whine and moan about how it's just soo painful. But I am failing miserably.

So I had a root canal done Wednesday and I was actually okay. Thursday wasn't so bad either.

Friday is when it all started. And I'm not really even sure when it started. I know at the beginning of the day it wasn't that bad. And by break time at work it wasn't that bad. But by the time it was time to go home the pain had begun, a dull throbbing and it just continued from there. In fact I went to bed with it still throbbing. Woke up Saturday morning and it wasn't really bothering me that much, but by lunch time there it was, back in the forefront of all my thoughts and it's only progressed to the point that I am not literally near tears, but if I let my self I could definitely cry about it.

So I admit that I am an 'oh so faithful' google-er. I love google. Look stuff up on there all the time.

I initially looked up my tooth problem because I was rather worried about how it was progressing, and what I found was that it seemed like I had an abscessed tooth. So I was one part relieved and one part freaked. The relieved because I had a Grandmother pass from cancer of the mouth and I was (ridiculously?) afraid that that was what might be wrong. And I was freaked because that still seemed like a fairly serious thing to be having wrong with your mouth. So I went to the dentist, they agreed that it was just an abscess and that a root canal would have to be done.

That was fine. And as I've stated the canal wasn't so bad nor the initial ensuing days either.

Well this pain has been so bad that I decided to google that. (incessant google-er my friends, that's me) What I found is that horribly enough it's actually not that uncommon for there to be pain. It's because of the infection that caused the abscess in the first place.

The dying bacteria in my mouth causes inflammation and that is what is causing the pain. Google says I should call my dentist and let them know that this is occurring and they will hopefully prescribe an antibiotic that will help get rid of the bacteria more quickly and thus the pain will go away!

Now, to be fair, my parents have been telling me this whole time that I need to call the dentist and let them know what is happening, and I've not been opposed to this line of thinking, other than I hate the phone and I hate complaining (not that you'd know that from reading this blog) and I dislike that so frequently the dentist in question isn't there. Older gentleman I suppose he gets to set whatever hours he likes. And I haven't actually been disagreeing with the oh so knowledgeable parents. I just haven't done it.

But "knowing" what the problem "most likely" is makes me much more likely to call. Except I can't because now it's Sunday and I can almost guarantee the dentist won't be there today. So instead I will suffer at least one more day of pain and hope that with enough drugs I can at least manage it.

And you might be happy to know that now that I've reached the end of this post, my typing has returned to normal and my anger level has simmered. I think maybe the pain has placed me in a stupor and I am just going to try and sleep it off.

Maybe soon I'll blog about the fun time Josh and I had at the Last Comic Standing Finalists show we went to. Ya know, if I can stop whining so much.

lates.

Oy Vey!

2010-10-16T17:09:00.004-05:00

I just don't understand it.

My room.... which I admittedly spend a lot of time, takes approximately two minutes to get dirty. And I MEAN dirty. Like snap your neck your because there isn't anywhere to walk dirty.

Like things disappearing at random because it's so stuffed full of stuff....'n stuff.

It's crazy.

Happily I found the dvd's that I was missing.... and a few things that I forgotten I had.

So that's cool.

Now if only I had magic and was able to clean in that way.

Welp..... let's see how far I can get this time.

Lates!

OH, and if you happen to hear a really loud crash... you might check that I'm still okay... just ya know to be on the safe side.

Wait so long

2010-10-14T12:54:00.002-05:00

Oh!

Hello!

I didn't see you there.

See I thought that maybe people had forgotten this place.

Know I kind of did.

I mean..... that's sort of obvious isn't it?

Last posting?

August?

And it wasn't anything ground breaking.... but there you are.

And here I am.

Funny how we are here again.

Do I really have anything new to report?

Well???.... uh....

Yeah maybe I do.

Let's see what I can find in here.

Mom and Josh had birthday's. We went out. Food was eaten and stuff was given.

Transferred stores. I like it in Robinson. The first week was cake. I mean the literally have about half the customer traffic that Olney had. So that was interesting. I've gotten to know some of the people somewhat so I have people to talk to while standing around.

I was sick for a while there. Allergies. So I actually missed a couple days of work. But I'm good now.

Brook had a birthday. We ate German food. I had never had actual German food. It was quite tasty if I do say so.

Went to the Covered Bridge Festival. That was pretty cool. I got a really cool old postcard. It's really pretty, Bird and flowers and a .... church(?) in the background. (I like to say that it's Hogwarts in the background though) The letter on the back seemed nice. Nice lady that Bernice.

Speaking of Hogwarts....

Who else is super excited about the Deathly Hallows Part 1 coming out Nov 19th? Just me?

Naw, can't be! I am so stoked! I've just recently finished re-reading all of the books.

Good news? Ended just the same as last time! Glad things go so well.

I heard in the rumor mill that Rowling was possibly going to be delving into the world of Hogwarts again. Wouldn't that be fun. It wouldn't have to be the same set of people. I just enjoy her writing and world so much that I think all of her books would be fantastic. Who knows though, that could be totally wrong.

Read Cassandra Clare's 'Clockwork Angel'. Also an excellent read! If you've read her Mortal Instrument series then you know what I'm talking about. I was kind of worried about how much I'd like this one because it's an historical where the other is a modern series. Same "world" I guess you could say. Meaning same mystical world of hunters and demons and angels and what not. Anyway I really liked the book. It had a kind of different feel to it which it most likely needed with being a different series but still really exciting and entertaining.

I didn't know this was going to become a book review type of post.

In fact I was going to (hopefully) in come clever (unknown to me) way work the title of the post into a blurb about Trampled by Turtles. Which is a country(?) group that I've been enjoying. 'Wait so long' is the current song du jour for me. So fast and just an awesome song.

Anyway I'm going to end it here, because I have to go to work.... and I feel like I've just been torturing you all anyway.

So yup.... Ima head out!

Lates!

Update about life so far...

2010-08-26T13:35:00.003-05:00

So first full week of school is now over for me.

And so far? I haven't hated it! Which is sort of amazing.

Kim, Sarah and I have been going together (except the days where I work) and that's fun, people to talk to on the way, there is the reliability issue and it's nice having people I know in the classes.

The classes themselves have been pretty good too. The one that's the most, I guess "trying" would be the word, for me has been the Interpersonal Communications class. It's not even that I dislike the teacher, cause honestly she seems pretty cool. It's not so much the course context... more than anything? It's the other students that are causing me grief.

Today it was like we had group therapy. I don't want to be a part of group therapy! I just want to learn what we are supposed to learn and move along. And I am okay with people providing examples of real life to further prove the points in class... but going on and on about your personal problems is not cool!

We should have been able to get through most of the chapter's notes but instead we had to hear all about issues with parents and money/boyfriend issues. It was annoying. I was annoyed... and I didn't hide it very well.

Orientation to Pharmacy Tech was actually a good class. I love the teacher in there. She's also our teacher for Pharmacy Calculations too. Exact same students in both classes too so that's kind of nice. I mean I can get to know the students and I'll be able to go to them if any issue comes up in class. Whether I've missed one and need the assignments or I don't get something and need assistance. Course I have my girls for that too, but it's nice to have multiple options.

Pharmacy Tech class might get a little more difficult when we actually have our textbooks. Which we will by this coming monday, and also we'll have our first quiz then too. On the first 13 brand name drugs and their generic counterparts.

By the end of class we have to know the top 200 drugs on the market... and the generic counter parts.... I'm sort of stressed about this. I have the first 13 down.... spelling might be a little sketchy but I know what they are supposed to look like... but 200! That's crazy! But I'll just take the words as they come and do my best. I can do this! We'll see what else class will be like monday, the history of pharmacy techs and the current day practices.... we'll see.

Pharmacy Calculations again was pretty easy. It might get more difficult but so far it's good. Roman numerals, fractions and decimals. Nothing to earth shattering. But it's probably going to get more difficult as we go on.

Another bonus to these classes/teacher is there is no midterm! How sweet is that? There will be a final and it's comprehensive. The teacher is really nice and wants to see everyone succeed so she works with you if you are having issues. She has a pretty dry sense of humor too, which is cool cause it fits my sense of humor just fine.

So to recap? School while not my favorite thing necessarily? Yeah I'm actually kind of enjoying it.

And I would rather only go to that and not still have to work.

Yeah that's kind of the downer part of this whole thing.

I finally got my job offer, which means my transfer has been finalized. Which will be nice won't have as far to travel every day. Also have new hours which will be sweet because I won't have to worry about finding people to swap hours with anymore like I've been having to lately.

I'll miss most of the people that I work with but all in all I'm glad I'm swapping stores. I am a little nervous about it though. New store and all. But it'll be fine I'm sure.... I hope

So that's about it for me lately.... school work and home again.

Maybe next blog I'll discuss people's birthday's and how they were celebrated.... If I remember it all.

Lates!

Good news all around

2010-08-19T15:26:00.004-05:00

So let's start with the mediocre and build from there.

My goal of a two pound weight loss for this past week? Not achieved, but I did lose 1 pound and that's loads better than nothing/gain.

My car got new brakes put on it, and today it's to get a new compressor, which is supposed to fix the a/c, the defrost, the power steering and possibly a whole host of other issues! So that's ya know pretty sweet.

My cousin told me she had over heard people talking about me. Now normally I could find this very unnerving and possibly insulting. But in this instance it was a good thing. You see my cousin Lisa works at the store that I am trying to get a transfer to. So them talking about me, saying that I was a cashier... and whatever else they were saying, it's hopefully a good thing.

Which leads me into the another couple of good things. My transfer date has been approved and set, so that's me working in the Olney store for a little less than a month and then I'll be at the Robinson store. That is apparently as soon as they give me a job offer. Even my personal person doesn't know where they are hiring me in at.... so that should be a surprise.

And speaking of Robinson.... Had my first day of classes today. First time, in a college setting that I've actually had a teacher keep me the full time on the first day. Usually they just cover the syllabus and away we go. Nope this lady talked and talked then had us all introduce ourselves, speed dating style to each other then she gave us an assignment for some easy points. I'm still not convinced that this class is going to be easy. She said that there well be very little actual homework, but several instances of roll playing. I don't really know which is worse. I suppose it all depends on who I get to interact with.

Knew Sarah was going to be in the class with me, after all we signed up at the same time and purposefully chose the same times, but was pleasantly surprised to learn that a girl from school was not only in this class with us, she's doing the same program too and has all of the same classes we have. Times and everything. So that's really sweet! The only difference is that she is taking an online class. So she lives in this area too and that's another person to add to the carpooling. Hopefully even less gas we'll have to spend!

Kim is living with her dad, Sarah is living with her parents and I live with mine. And not that we don't love all of our parents, we think it would be really awesome to find a place that we could all live together in. Especially if it was in Robinson, then we wouldn't have to drive through all that road construction everyday and that would be so much less driving time. But they both have to find jobs, so it may be awhile until something like that happens.*

Found out how much I was approximately approved for, for FASFA. Awesome! I think it's to be divided up between semesters but I'll still have money left over to be able to use on things that I need outside of the actual school expenditures. The downer on all of that is. I don't actually have it! I just want my money people, what ever amount it may be. Called Tuesday and the helpful financial aid lady told me that my appeal had been approved, but that I needed to fill out some paper work proving my state citizenship. (I don't know that that's what it's actually called but that's what I'm calling it) I told her that I would be in the next day to get books, could I just fill it out then? She said that would be great, and that she wouldn't have them mail me the papers.

So just to keep you in the loop. Tuesday called, told them I'd be in Wednesday to fill out forms and get books, Thursday is the first day of classes.

So Wednesday got up early, Sarah came and picked me up and away to Robinson we went. Her a/c is giving her fits, it was hot and road construction was occurring. (I just want you to have the full picture here) Se we get there, and I know it's busy, lots of kids with lots of last minute things, but I had called people, I had called. So I go in tell the lady who I am and what I am there for. First apparently she thought I was too young? I don't know. She asked if I had brought my parents' id or tax returns for proof.

uh..... what?

Lady I'm 25, I have a valid license, and I work. I brought my own paper work.

So I filled out her paper work, easy peasy... lalala.... Hand it in. I ask about being able to get my books. She tells me that if I come in before my class the next day she'll at least have a voucher for me so I can get said books, in leu of my FASFA check. Ok whatever.

Thursday up I get nice and early, get ready and away I go once Sarah picked me up. Got there at least 30 minutes early, plenty of time to get this voucher thing and to get my books! Woo-hoo!

Except... I get in the office and ask the lady about the voucher. First she didn't recognize me, which I honestly didn't expect her to know my name, but I would have at least realized that I had just talked to a person the day before. But she's probably had a lot, I mean a lot, ALOT of people go through in the past few days. I don't hold it against her for that.

But she seemed annoyed that I was asking about a voucher. I was thinking to myself, look lady you are the one who told me to check back before class! But I kept my cool and politely waited like she asked. Not long after she decided I should just go to class and come back afterwards to get it so they could look it up. *gritting my teeth* Fine.

Class was as I mentioned above.

After class Kim, Sarah and I talked for a bit then we all headed over to the office. Me for voucher... again and Kim to find out the status of her FASFA.

Again lady didn't know who I was. Fine I'm not a memorable person. I again ask about this stupid voucher and again she tells me they don't have it ready.

Look I'm not saying she has to drop everything and get this voucher for me. What I am saying is that I've been told to come and get it twice now and now twice it hasn't been made available to me. If you can't get it ready in the time allotted then don't allot that time! Tell me it's fine but come in Monday, what ever. Quit stringin me along!! GRRRRRR!

Kim just wanted to talk to the financial aid lady, office lady told her she was busy. Then not even five minutes later we saw the financial aid lady leave the office... and not return again. Again... quit stringing us along.

We told Kim adios and headed back towards Newton. Got our lovely Huck's drinks (I love huck's drinks... you can add different flavorings to your soda!! and they have the good ice!) Hit Walmart, because I can never get enough of that place! (but I did need stuff so why not) then we grabbed some McDonald's and away we went. (don't judge me... you know you want some mikyD's too!)

So... that rather ended sourly.... I mean the huck's and walmart and McD's was all good.. but the voucher business wasn't... let's see.... what's good news again.

uhh...

mmmm.....

Mom had a good day at work today! That's good news.

Oh and tomorrow Mom, Miss Tiff and I are going out for a celebratory birthday lunch for Mom's birthday! That's good news too!

So there... back to good news all around!!

So now you should share your good news! I love good news! It's so fun!

Lates!

*There was a listing for a three bedroom house for rent!! Hiy-0!

Trips and Goals

2010-08-12T10:38:00.003-05:00

I haven't blogged in a while. I guess (although I did stuff) I felt that I didn't have stuff to blog about. So maybe this will be a twofer.

So this past weekend, several of my girls from high school got together for a fun filled weekend.
We went to Evansville. We ate lunch then hit the mall and then that evening we got (as it was termed by Kaylie) 'hookered up' and went out to eat at O'Charley's. We thought about catching a movie or mini golfing or even finding a karaoke bar but we just ended up heading to our hotel and hanging out there, which was fun. Apparently groups I am with have a tendency to skip out on staying out in the heat when there is a nice cool hotel room available. Heee! No midnight McDonald's' runs, and there was even a Steak n Shake less than a block away which would have been great. Guess we had enough supplies that it wasn't necessary. Saturday got up bright and early (yes I was the first person up!!) got ready and then we all headed to HOLIDAY WORLD!

This is becoming something of an every year thing for us. Ok so this was actually only the second year in a row, but a similar group has gone before. I think we are really going to try and make it an every year thing now though. It's just too much fun not to.

Invariably we manage to pick the busiest weekend possible. But it was still fun. First we dropped our stuff off at Splashin Safari, last year we carried it and that just wasn't happening this year. And then back to the main park. I think that was actually the smart way to do it. Lines weren't horrendous I think because mainly people were in the water. Sure waits were typically around an hour but really that was much better than last year. And with us all talking and laughing it really didn't seem that long.

Here are the rides we hit (in order)

Legend, Gobbler Getaway, Voyager, Gobbler Getaway, Pilgrims Plunge.

From there we went into the water park. I love that pilgrim's plunge leads right into the water park. We changed and went and climbed into the newer wave pool. I love this thing. We spent a good time in there just goofing off and splashin around. Then we got in the newer lazy river, the Bahari. Love love love lazy rivers! So relaxing, and fun to boot. Sarah, Kaylie and I like to go under the waterfalls and all the added stuff. Lindsay and Abbie did not. TOO BAD! We were all in a circle (don't worry there weren't a lot of people in the river we weren't obnoxious) and if one went it was hard to not get them all.

The water park was closing at 7:30 that day so we got out when we started to get chilled (6:30ish?) and changed back to normal duds. Then back to the main park it was. Some of the girls wanted to get fudge/cookies but Abbs and I wanted to ride the Liberty Launch... So we DID! I love that ride. (I don't think there wasn't a ride I went on that I didn't love) And the line was very small.

Oh oh oh! Abbs and I had respect crushes on the young men operating the L. Launch. First a kid had climbed under all the turnstiles(is that what you call the poles that direct the line) and Nick (I read his name tag) made this kid walk back out and then walk back in going through the whole thing! Yay! Then Ethan (what I read one but not the other I don't think so!) made all the little kiddies standing on the bars to get down! And the guy up in the booth (sorry booth dude I couldn't see your badge) was being really fun and interacting with the people on the ride. They were doing their job, enforcing the rules and still having a good time with the people riding. That's awesome!! I love when people are like that! *respect crush just made a reappearance*

So all in all Holiday World rocked! Oh! And we got our picture taken with Holli Dog! SU-weet!!

On the return trip we played catch phrases, which was funny... we get very excited, and it's funny to hear what everyone guesses from the clues you give.

So having told that story rather quickly I'll try and segway into the other half of the post title.

So last year I was at my heaviest weight... the one I was at for so long. While I was able to go on the rides, I do think it was a near thing, I really wouldn't want to be much heavier (and I think there are frequently people who are) So this year! This year I was down in weight.... I wasn't as far down as I could have been had I been following the program and exercise regimen as I had been doing. But still 30lbs is 30lbs! It made a big time difference! Rides were more comfortable/less painful and I didn't feel as hot this year although I think it was as hot if not hotter and I didn't feel as embarrassed to be seen in my swimsuit. All really good things!

But mom and I both are determined to do much better with the program than we have been doing. Suffice to say that I don't think I've really been to the site in a month, and that's just dumb to not go/do something you are paying for! So there is goal one! Do better on Weightwatchers! And the bonus of having lost all that weight will be next year I will be even more comfortable and I'll have no problem what so ever fitting in any ride seat!

Next... before the Holiday World trip I registered for classes with my buddy Sarah! Woot that's one goal DOWN! I can take it off the little side goal there! Now I have to GO and EXCEL!!

I'm trying to keep those words (and words like them) in the forefront of my mind. Making me well.... go and excel. I so want this job, I so want to be done with school (having actually finished a degree) and I want to kick this courses booty! I mean I want to be leader of the pack!

So it's undoubtedly going to be hard, Medical Terminology alone will probably give me headaches, but I WILL do this! (yay go team!)

Lastly my goal for a clean room just doesn't seem to happen. I try and I try and I try.. but eeeeeeverybody wants to put me down. They say I'm going crazy... wait... sorry *ahem* Slipped into song mode there for a second.

I get so far... and then I lose focus. And I really want to paint this puppy too! I've had the stuff for quite a while now... it's totally time.

So that's it.... follow program, excel in school, and clean the blinkty blankin room!

Happy blogging fellow bloggers!

Lates!

I love the funny!

2010-07-27T10:45:00.003-05:00

So on the Chicago trip we had that time at the hotel, around the time of the midnight McDonald's run.

In that time Brook and Jacob shared this glorious beauty!----> Double Rainbow

It's so funny, and there are even remixes of it. That song is pretty sweet.

Well then today on Cake Wrecks their blog is called The Rainbow Connection. Suffice to say they are making fun of rainbow dude too!

Ah I love when a good plan comes together!

I am obsessed

2010-07-25T01:16:00.005-05:00

I love a show.

It's over now this show, but it's still really good.

Avatar; The Last Airbender. It's just so funny. I think I've watched all three seasons at least three times now. Because...

Ya know...

I'm obsessed.

*Clears throat all embarrassed like*

Ummm.... Bought some fun Bands! Birds (cause I love me some birds! Totally obsessed with birds too) and Jam Session. I was totally mislead about the Jam Session one. It showed a piano in the group, there was no piano! It had a dude jammin on a guitar instead. Harumph!

But they came in awesome colors, ones that match my polka dot colors on my nails, and they were only a dollar each, which with my discount was even less so... YEAH! Bonus!

I'm reading City of Bones by Cassandra Clare. I've read it before, borrowed it from Sarah and it's AWESOME *sung in a overly exaggerated manner* Thing is, I think I might have purchased the first one already... which means I now own two. Unless I didn't in which case, hooray!

Have/had been doing weightwatchers.... sort of.... well let's face it I feel off the bandwagon again.

And I know, how often do I say 'oh no, I did bad, now I need to get re-motivated...' blah blah blah.

Truth is... I've just been enjoying eating to much to care. But I told mom tonight that I want to start walking again come Monday. Not because I necessarily want to start walking again (it's hot out and walking takes energy so ewww) But because I want to be 'skinny'. There I said it. I do want to be skinny. I mean not uber skinny, like 115 or anything insane like that. I don't think I can even fathom that number on me. But I do want to be as in shape and trim and tiny as is healthy for me to be. But let's face it.... I am so not that now. So it's gonna be a long long, longlonglong road to get there. I was doing a good job and then..... eh I guess life sort of overwhelmed me, or something. But I will do this! Because I am tired of my belly giggling when I laugh. And I'm tired of feeling like I look like I am pregnant. And I'm tired of being so uncomfortable in not only size 18 clothes but also my own skin. And I'm tired of all my stupid stretch marks. (possible over abundance of knowledge there but it comes with getting a glimpse into my mind)

I feel like all I see when I look in a mirror lately is stretch marks, rolls and a very large number.

Which is not a good vision to have of yourself, but I'm just laying everything out there for you tonight. So if you are still reading this... Sorry!!

On the happier side of things, I set a goal for myself to only spend a certain amount of money until my paycheck on the 6th, and so far I've done a bang up job! So yay me!

Also I only have to work a 4 and 1/2 hour shift tomorrow. Sweet!

And... uh....

I re-painted my nails! So yeah... no more chipped messiness!

Well... I think that's all I got tonight.

Did this blog post seem whiny to you?

Sorry I still didn't write the return trip, I guess there really wasn't that much to tell... really.

I'm still working on the photos, there sure were a lot of them. I went a little camera happy.

Lates!

You Capture Black and White

2010-07-23T00:35:00.005-05:00

So I've never participated in this before, but I had so many photos from our weekend Chicago trip that I just had to join in.

The view from the top of the Ferris wheel on Navy Pier.

Cause you know, Bear's got to earn a living too.

I just want to say that this is a frequent pose for us, the fact that the statue was there was just happen stance.

Me and my beautiful mother, cause we can do serious too.

My brother and his girlfriend, they are so adorable.

You Capture

Day 2

2010-07-22T10:04:00.004-05:00

So day two started out rather leisurely, got up sort of when people felt like it. We all got ready and headed out for another fun filled day.

Went and ate breakfast at Ihop first, where the food was tasty but they denied Brook her Cinna-minions which was just mean. Then we went to board the Metra. Apparently there are only 'permit required' parking lots there... so we drove around and around and around until finally father went into city hall (?) where they gave him a one day permit thing. So yay! But we had literally just missed a train heading to the city so we had to wait an hour for the next one. Luckily they had some lovely flowers to look at, so that killed all of 5 minutes. Books were retrieved from the van and reading commenced. It was a nice day so it's wasn't so bad waiting around.

By the time the train came the station was pretty crowded, pops wanted to sit on the upper level of the train if possible, it wasn't. They were full. So we just hurried to find seats and sat. Dude behind me? Yeah grunty, wheezy, sniffy guy. Sort of annoying and gross. But other than that nice ride. (Jacob and I had been on the Metra before... Not sure if Mom rode that our not)

Came in to Union Station and we had pre-decided to catch a water taxi out to Navy Pier. So we totally did! Oh by the way, always a good idea to watch where you are going and not be staring at a map.... cause then you don't notice those three stairs you are about to walk down-- whoops! Didn't fall though, just... took a jump. My bad! Some comic relief for you there folks.

There were some (I can only hope) teenagers getting on the taxi ahead of us (same taxi, ahead in line) and they seemed to be having some sort of feud with some other kids ahead of them, behaving in a very immature manner. And it continued the rest of the time they were on the boat. Did your mother not teach you manners? Oh wait that's your mother/guardian with you behaving the exact same way? Question withdrawn.

But it was fun to head down the river and to see all the buildings. I sort of wished we had been able to do a water tour instead, then you get to see a little more and you can actually hear the guy when he talks on his little intercom thing.

Navy Pier was nice, they have a big noodle like is in front of Wrigley so the kids posed in front of that, Jacob tried to eat it. They had this statue of kids playing.... ring-around-the-rosie? Anyway we thought it'd be fun to pose with it, or at least mimic it, so we did! Cause we're goobs! But I like it!

Jacob, Brook and I went up on the ferris wheel, the rents weren't real keen on the idea. That was sweet, but they were trying to educate us about the city and all of the directions they were giving seemed way off, and how hard can that be to give directions from Navy Pier?

So we went inside to eat at Capi's. They have some serious pasta making skills. Very delicious.

We happened to notice that there was a red carpet laid out. That's very curious. And there was a sign about the Stanley Cup, wait... that means....

That's right the Blackhawks, Champions of the Stanley Cup we're going to be at Navy Pier!! Talk about awesome!

Unfortunately they were supposed to have been there at 3 (? this is the story I heard it's not been confirmed) but it was past that and they still hadn't shown up. We needed to catch our trolley to get to the L station to get to the game. So we quickly looked through the shops there. One store had a top that I LOVED but the color I wanted only came in smalls, plus it might have been a kids shirt... the other color's extra large seemed small. So I just came away with some sweet post cards.

The trolley was fun, wicked crowded but fun. The driver was funny, he said I'll call out the stops, if you need off just pull the cord, or if you can't reach that 'dingding' works for me. So we got to hear lots of people yell out 'dingding'. But Jacob was disappointed, he wanted to pull the cord for our stop but almost everybody got off there and they all yelled, so no cord pulling for him. :(

Hopped on the L, red line just so you know. Well actually the first one was so crowded we decided to wait, the next one was better but only slightly. Standing room only here kids, and it's a bit of a bumpy ride. But I was ok with it. One of the ladies next to me was not, she was very annoyed that the train was so full. (that's right I read her text over her shoulder... but just the one!) Got off at Addison and we were there!

Wrigley! I love that place! It's so fun. So we walked around the whole thing, Brook had never been. And we looked at shirts and I really wanted a couple. I so wanted one with a name on the back, but I'm not allowed. Every time, every time that I've ever gotten anything with my favorite player's name on it, they get traded. EVERY TIME! I got a pin once like a lapel pin? It looked like a jersey and had Michael Barrett's name on the back, figured I'd be ok since I wouldn't actually wear it? Nope I don't think it was even a month later they traded him.

No shirt names for me!!!

But I did want another shirt, but they were all like 40-50 bucks, and I am cheap, or poor. Depends on how you look at it. I didn't really want to spend that much, but I didn't really have that much to spend anyway. So... yeah.

So game was good... though the Umps were bad, calling people out that were safe and what not! And the starting Cubs pitcher did not have a good inning. But there was a home run or two by the Cubs. But ultimately? Yeah they lost. *sigh* I blame Starlin, he had some really horrible plays. And I just don't understand. If someone is having that bad of a day why do you leave him in?!?! You took the pitcher out when he did bad, and the next one... so why leave in the bad short stop player? Who knows?

Funny story, cute family in front of us? The dad reminded me of my Uncle Tim. He seemed to really love the ladies of his family which is just super sweet. (Again I was being nosy) He was texting someone about the game and said 'I have much to teach my daughters. Meg just asked if it's half time' I love that he found that cute. Cause it totally is!

We actually had to leave before the game was over to catch our train back. But I don't think we missed much. At one of our stops we got to see a GIANT EYEBALL! There should be more of those in the world. It was some art they had on display. Got to see the Public Library which had some sweet architectural elements. And then it was back to Union Station. Again had to wait an hour for our train, literally just missed the one before. (it's a knack)

Train ride back we sat up top. Not sure Pops enjoyed it as much as he thought he would. Ours was the second or third to last stop the train made so we got a nice long ride. Then into the van and back to the hotel. Where we all just pretty much crashed. It was a long day and full of fun but finally time to end it.

Travel back story tomorrow? Not much to tell really but I might post some pictures there.

Late!

Chicken in a car but the car won't go, that's how you spell chicago

2010-07-21T14:53:00.004-05:00

I think I learned that 7th or 8th grade, and I'm still not really sure how it works, but I got to tell you that it does stick in my head.

So this weekend was our Chicago trip. So much fun. Saturday mom and I decided that we need to prepare for the occasion by painting our nails. Boys will like you if you paint your nails. *said in a heavy new york accent*

Mom went with a lovely pinky color, more neutral. I decided to be bold and brash! I went white with green,blue,orange,purple polka-dots. Fun!! Fingers and toes for me, just toes for mom.

Once that was done, and believe me that was a chore for me! We were all ready to go! So Sunday morning bright and early we got up and headed to Terre Haute to pick up Brook and Jacob. Who oh so kindly had square donuts for us. Yum is all I can say!

We hit the road for some fun in the Windy City. Sunday was to be a whatever day, Monday was the day we had tickets for. Tickets for a Cubs game. So we decided to go to the Lincoln Park Zoo.

As we were walking in to look at all the fun animals, Jacob let it be known that if he didn't see some polar bears a koala was gonna get punched! Which just doesn't seem fair for the poor koala, but we were going to make a point to find those polar bears! And wouldn't you just know it the clouds rolled in, the thunder cracked and the rain started pouring down from the sky. Now at least we were prepared and all had umbrellas to use. But still it was coming at us sort of side-ways so we were getting pretty wet. So this Zoo had a sort of "farm" area in it and had a nice house with porch that we ducked under. We just stood under that and waited the storm out, didn't last to awfully long. The lightening was right on top of us but I personally enjoyed that.

When it passed we headed over to the barn to begin our tour. There they had a scale that told you the equivalent of your weight compared to farm animals. Jacob, Brook and I total a sow with a litter of 10 piglets, which just cracked me up.

From there we saw some Jacob sheep, a couple bulls and a few cows, some goats and maybe a pig or two. Then we went on to have lunch.

From there we went to see the more exotic animals. I don't know if it was the storm or the heat but a lot of the animals were hiding away so we couldn't see some of them. But we did see a lot.

And happily we eventually saw a polar bear, so all koalas were safe. (although I'm not positive but I think that the zoo didn't actually have any koalas) Saw the cat portion, I love tigers, leopards, and panthers so that was sweet. I also love me some penguins and they were hanging out too! So yeah really enjoyed the zoo. Only animal I was bummed to not see? Elephants. What sort of zoo doesn't have elephants? They totally didn't. Sad!

From there we went to eat at Rain Forest Cafe, which isn't really a cafe so why it should be called such is beyond me. But it was really delicious. I liked all the 'animals' they had about. The night sky on the ceiling with shooting stars was pretty sweet too. The only thing that was a bit much for me was the music, it was soo loud. And under most situations I probably wouldn't have minded as much but I had a wicked head ache. But I really enjoyed it.

From there we seriously thought about going and trying to get bleacher seats for the Cubs game that night but I think we just decided we were to tired. So to the hotel it was.

We talked about swimsuits for the pool there at the hotel but that would have involved going to purchase some (since no one but father brought theirs) but eventually that was decided against and we just watched the Cubbies on tv. Which sort of made us wish we had tired for the bleachers but it was ok.

Finally we decided that we needed to make a midnight McDonald's run (ok maybe 10:30) So in the van we piled one last time for shakes and fries. So good! A truly delicious way to end the night.

Day two tomorrow.

Lates for now!

Pool, subs and cubs

2010-07-17T19:01:00.009-05:00

So success was mine!!

Thursday after a "fun-filled" day at work. Came home to attempt to go swimming with mom again. We knew that there was to be a private party so they were closing at 5:45, but that left us with two whole hours to soak up the sun. So we went, we conquered!

We owned that pool!

Okay, so we just basked in it's cool wetness. But it was lovely, and while mom saw a few of her students from last year they weren't to horrible. One of them is just a teeny bit bossy, but all in all not so bad. (on a funny note, we got there and barely had our toes in the water when they blew the whistle signaling a 10 minute break) (also I take evil delight in the fact that it poured rain that night, so the party probably got cut really short!)

So yesterday... Got up and headed to work, first hour seemed to d-r-a-g by. I mean it was so long, and I was actually busy where as the day before I had nothing to do. Weird. So eventually Talina that I work with got there, and that's about when the time seemed to pick up. Maybe because Anna and Talina both spent some time up at the service desk talking to me, helped pass the time. So anyway Anna had first lunch and she mentioned going to Subway and well, Talina and I thought that sounded great. So when it was time for my lunch I decided, 'Hey that sounds like the thing for me.' So I quickly walked to the back, clocked out and headed out to Subway.

When I got there it was pretty hoppin' but I thought it'd be okay. Nothing to horrible, just a little down time. So I get my order in and the guys ahead of me were just chatting away with the ladies working there and that was a little annoying. But finally got down to the register and the nice woman there asked if I'd like a meal deal with my sandwich. I told her yes and proceeded to open my purse to get out my card to pay.

This picture is exactly what the inside of my purse looked like when I opened it.

There was a crucial piece missing. And what was funny was that I kept moving those few things in my purse back and forth as if they were some how hiding that elusive wallet. So I was a teeny bit panicked, they don't take checks so....

The nice lady told me I could come back and I said I would and hit the bricks. I went out to my car and was debating getting in and driving all the way back to my store to 'purchase-something-with-a-check-and-write-it-for-over-so-I-have-cash', when I glanced up and saw shining brightly in the sun CVS. *angels sing heavenly tunes at this point* I think "I'm saved!" and proceed to cross the street and head inside to buy something, anything so I can get cash.

I grabbed a pack of gum and waited in line, of course there's a line when you're in a hurry, and while in said line I hear 'What are you doing in here?'

I looked up and Lindsay had entered the store! Well hi Lindsay how are you? I'm just here 'cause I'm an idiot and forgot my wallet. Hoping to get some cash. You?

She had seen me cross the street while her and her hubby were driving through town and decided to stop and talk to me.

Well it was finally my turn to make my purchase, luckily I asked the cashier before she rang anything up. CVS doesn't allow checks to be written over the amount of your total! O.O! NOOOOOOO!!!!

Lindsay told me to follow her and she had me hop in their car and she loaned me $15. They drove me back over to Subway. I was soooo glad she decided to stop.

So I go in to pay for my sandwich and 'skip' the line, seems silly to go through the line just to pay at the end. I wait while a guy attempts to pay for his sandwich with his debt card... which isn't reading. He asks if they take checks, the cashier (same one) said sorry no and smiled at me. I told him not to go over to CVS either because they couldn't help him. ( I think he thought I was nuts) Luckily one of the other Subway employees got his card to go through by typing in the numbers. He paid for his food, I paid for mine and then all was right with the world.

Well... maybe not with the whole world, but with my little portion of it? Yup.

So Lindsay was my hero for the rest of the day... maybe even for the rest of the month! Yup I owe that girl big time.

Moral of the story, it's good to stop and surprise someone, you just never know how you might save their day.

Oh and am headed to Chicago tomorrow with the 'rents and Jacob and Brook. Super excited. Not sure what all we are doing. Hopefully Navy Pier, maybe Brookfield Zoo and definitely a Cubs game! Gooooo Cubbies!!!!!

Late!

Pool

2010-07-14T17:47:00.004-05:00

First I give a quick update about diet.

Haven't been walking for like three weeks. And it's not even bothering me anymore. Although I do think it would help me lose faster.

Haven't been eating exactly right, I mean I've been staying within my points. But I haven't been doing that great of a job of getting my veggies in, and struggling a little with my water on days that I don't work.

And on that note I must tell you, that for all of that misbehaving I still lost a pound this week. Which is great!! But I bet, if I was doing things like I was supposed to be doing then I would be losing even more... well a little more each week. Need to exercise and eat better!! Okay, now that I've told you all about that..... on with the post.

No pool for me.

I think, and mother agrees, that it's a sign. I don't believe it's from God though. Just saying someone is trying to tell me something.

So last week tried to go with Mom, Jacob and Brook. The rain decided that no, you don't need to go. So this week thought I'd try again.

Wanted to go Monday, but didn't. We went and saw Despicable Me. It was really good. The littlest girl was so super adorable.

Yesterday could have gone but I went with Sarah to Mattoon and then back to her parents where we just hung out.

So today, today was to be the day! Was going to go earlier, but mom thought we should wait til evening when it would be cooler and possible kiddies would be gone, also she wanted to get some cards made and mailed. So fine, we waited. Finally 5 o'clock rolls around and we are headed to the pool! Yay!! We walk up there, see all the people swimming, having a rousing good time! Get to the door and hear the employees telling a group ahead of us, 'Sorry the pool is closed for a private party.'

?!?!??!?!?!?!?

What?? But.... and...

But....

I want to swim. Why won't the pool let me?! Are you sure I'm not part of that party?! Cause I'm pretty sure I can be. If only you'll let me swim.

Pool you are so mean to me!

I'm out.....

*mumbles to self in an annoyed manner*

Finally...

2010-07-07T11:07:00.004-05:00

So I haven't blogged in a while... sorry bout that... here come the excuses.

One I was working, always takes a lot out of me.

Two I was sick, definitely took a lot out of me, and really who wants to hear all about how sick I am.

Three I had gained weight and wasn't exercising... (i was sick people) so didn't want to blog about how poorly I was doing in that regard either.

Four I haven't done anything. It's hard to blog when there isn't anything to report.

Ok the last is a bit of a lie, I have done some stuff. Here is a quick run down.

Exercised some, Ate better (but not great), Got a facial, Got a verbal, Went to a open house, Bought some stuff, Bought some more stuff, Read a book (or two), Didn't exercise, Went to work, Watched some movies... and winding down to today... Got my hair cut and weighed in.

So like I said weighed in... Yesterday was the actual weigh in day that I have assigned my self but when I weighed it wasn't what I wanted to see... it was the exact same as last week which was down from the 2lbs+ but still wasn't all the way back down.

Well... weighed in today and I don't know if it was just finally showing what I was feeling, or if it was the hair cut or both... but I'm now officially back down to my lowest weight. (meaning the lowest I had reached losing not the lowest I've ever weighed) YAY!!! I am so happy about that. Now I just need to keep going downwardly and get this stinkin weight off!!

I suppose I should be happy with all the progress I've made so far which I am. But I think I need to keep in mind just how long it's taken me to get as heavy as I was. It's not like this just suddenly hit me. It's been building for a while now, so it's not going to leave in just one day. I've made great progress and will continue to do so. (but shoot i was hoping to get closer to one-derland for my holiday world trip) Anyway.... on with other things that I have done...

Tortured mom today. Took her shopping in Tuscola, not that that was super torture... no that came later. We went to Old navy... I really wanted this white/orange skirt that they have. I just thought it was super cute.... but I didn't get it... mainly because I wasn't necessarily sold on the whole look. Found a cute tee to go with it but I just wasn't in my size!! They had XXL or L not XL which would have been perfect!! *sigh* I guess that was just a sign to not get it.... or something. Did find a couple of t-shirts though. Cute and comfy and cool. (lots of c's)

Mom got some cute clothes too... then we went back to Mattoon... where I did torture Mom by making her try on 1000 swimsuits..... or maybe not that many... but I did make her try them on... and she wasn't super excited to do so... not that I really blame her but... meh.

So hopefully tomorrow we'll go for our walk, shower head to wally for suit buisness and some lunch and then *blaring of trumpets here* DUUU DUUU DUUUUUUUUUU DUUUUUUUUUUUUH!!!!! Go to the pool!!

Want to come? It'll most likely be 3ish? You are more than welcome!! It's going to be great fun!!

Aight... that's all I'm gonna talk about today.... I can't think coherently anymore.

Lates!

Aaaaaaaaaah-PHEWY!!!

2010-06-25T00:05:00.002-05:00

I don't like feeling like an idiot!

I never want to be conned again!

I'm a boob!

So ok here's the story.

Tonight at work this dude comes up to me.

"I was wanting to get a $50 and a $10 for these $20s."

me-"Okay, no problem." (press button to have my drawer opened)

I then take dudes cash and grab the change.

Dude starts to leave "Oh!" he says surprised,turning back around. "You gave me a $10 and a $5."

me and this is where I am suckered!!-"Weird, sorry bout that. I don't know how that happened. Someone must have messed up some bills on the drawer."

"No problem. Just need that 50, it's my daughter's birthday."

(I am such a boob!!)

Drawer is opened second time I take the five and give him a $50. Dude wins.

As soon as he leaves, I'm like, that was totally wrong. I was just conned. I know I grabbed a bill from the farther slot, which is what holds the $50s/$100s. I know I did.

So I ask for the drawer to be opened a third time, the csm is thinking I am crazy. She's called over to Jewelry so the cashier that was with her on pulls comes up to service desk. I proceed to tell her what just happened. As I'm finishing up the story to her the csm comes over.

"What was that?" she asks. I tell her the whole story. She gets this look on her face, like 'oh crap' "What was he wearing?" she asks urgently.

"I dunno." (I'd make a horrible witness) Jen (cashier) saw the guy and was able to describe him. Betty (csm) tells me to hang on and heads back to jewelry.

If you are imaginative, you can figure out where I am going with this story. But I'll tell it all anyway.

Betty comes back to service desk with Larissa and Lisa (jewelry ladies) and tells me it just happened to them too, for different amounts but same dude!!

Well.... at least I'm not the only boob!

I guess in my meager defense, I am just not a devious person. I don't think of these things, cons and what not. Who thinks up all the ways to steal from stores?

That's not really an excuse though. I've been a cashier for many years now and I should know better than to do something like that. But it was just so quick that I didn't even think.

Ahhhh phewy! I'm an idiot.

At least tonight I was.

bummer.

Let this be a lesson for you!

I would never want you to go through this, learn from my mistakes!

Someone needs to!

Revamped!!

2010-06-23T12:04:00.004-05:00

Revamped, readjusted, remotivated (again), reinspired, refocused, rededicated, revised, renewed.

Just to say a few...

You may notice a new background (you may not)

Had a bad week.... 2lb gain. (bad kara badbad!)

If I had been behaving properly, and following my plan like a good little girl I most likely wouldn't have had that. Because honestly I brought this on myself! I ate like there was no tomorrow. Some healthy some not, but absolutely no portion control!! It's like I've learned nothing!

So again I find the inner strength needed to lift my self from the funk I was in and get my self back on track! Cause I really do want to be achieving not failing.

So I found a new pretty background to go with my new view, goals, tasks, drive, focus, determination. (because I have a weird thing for word lists today)

Tanks and peace out!

2010-06-21T09:05:00.001-05:00

I want...

2010-06-20T23:48:00.002-05:00

My friends and I had a cookout this weekend. It was soo good. And not only that but it was fun to display it in lovely platters and what not.

Makes me want to do something.

Here it is.

It makes me want to run a business wiith the girls. I would love to run a resturant with them, but who has the money.

But here is something that could sort of be done on a little less funding.

All in one stop shop.

Photography/styling/catering. Call on us when it comes to your wedding, family function... thing. Wouldn't that be awesome!? And if eventually we built up enough of a name for our selves and enough money, we could then go on into a resturant type of situation.

For example, if we were able to build up enough cash/demand then we could purchase a place like the golf course, somewhere that has a nice outside area and a nice dining area where people could have their reception/photos and well.... it would also work as just a resturant.

Wouldn't that be awesome?!?!

Also, not saying that anyone wants to do any of this... but if we could get my brother talked into it make it photography/styling/catering/dj !! See it really is becoming a one stop shop thing.

Have the venue for the people to use, the food, the pictures, the fashion and the music!! What more does a person need? (ok a dress the preacher/judge and decoration but who's counting)

It would all be so awesome!!

Ok someone help us out on this!! I just know we can do it!!

Oh and if someone had baking/decorating skills we could do the cake too!!! And I mean how much easier could we make it for the wedding party?!?

It's a nice dream.... maybe someday something will happen.

Hot

2010-06-12T11:35:00.003-05:00

It's hot.

It's been hot.

It's going to continue to be hot.

Newton opened their new pool today. Free swim day.

I want to go.

I have no swimsuit.

I have no one who wants to go with me. (they want to swim just not with other people)

I have to work at 3.

It's hot.

I'm sad.

And hot.

*whimper*

late

I can't believe I am doing this...

2010-06-09T00:16:00.008-05:00

Fair warning: this most likely shouldn't be looked at with googlereader... there are pics.

Also: Please don't mind the faces I am making in these pics either, I don't even know what I am thinking in a couple of these, but I can assure you I wasn't as miserable as I may look.

After much debate (again) I have finally decided that YES I am going to post those photos... which I said I would but then I chickend out... but I've found my bravery again.. soo here goes

This was my personal favorite. I don't know what it was exactly.

I guess the support that helped hide flaws.

The fun color and print.

Just the way I felt I looked in it.

I guess this was my second pick.

I like the cut of it, and the color was nice.

But all in all I just don't think it was quite right.

This was my third choice.

I loved the print but I just didn't think it was very flattering.
I couldn't get over how the material, well not really hugged, but

emphasized my largest section.

This was mom's favorite, and it wouldn't have been so bad

if it had been in my actual size, but still. Just not quite me.

These are the dresses I purchased at Kohl's.

Still not sure I'm going to keep both.

So those are the dresses... and again don't mind the faces... nobody can follow all the things that run through my head.... so it's a mystery as to what I might have been thinking at the time.

What a whirlwind

2010-06-08T21:50:00.003-05:00

So... let's see... what have I been up too??

Ok last day I posted was Wednesday... walked with the girls, walked with the mother and then worked that evening. (It's hard for me to remember too many specifics after the fact so bear with me)

Thursday .... we'll come back to that (I actually remember thursday)

Friday walked with the mother and worked

Saturday worked (momma wanted to walk but I was too lazy)

Sunday had lunch with the family and worked (I remember that much)

Monday walked with Lindsay, then walked with mom. Then we hurried and got ready to go to Olney cause she wanted to get some groceries... and then.... we took too long at lunch and couldn't go shopping cause I had to get home to change and head back to Olney to work.

So here we are it's Tuesday.... but before I talk about today I'm going to go back to Thursday.

(you thought I forgot but I didn't)

So I was off Thursday and have been wanting to get an outfit for my friend's wedding which is quickly approaching. So mom and I decided to head to Evansville.

Walked with mom and then we cleaned ourselves up and headed out. Wouldn't you just know it we had to find an alternate route to eville because of the sthinkin (yes that is spelled correctly pronounce it sta-hinkin) because of the sthinkin marathon load that was being brought through.

That was a blast. I mean it wasn't anything too extreme but when you don't know a route it's kind of, oh I don't know... nerve racking to take it. But the father assured me that it would be fairly simple. Only two wrong exits (one more troublesome than the other) All in all not that traumatic.

So we get to eville and immediately head to the eating place. We were hungry chicks ok?!

O' charley's.

'Nuf said right there. It's so good! I love their half club/soup lunch combo. Which is not what I had. I had the half club/ salad combo, trying to lose weight here people. Have to behave as much as possible. I also had their freshly made strawberry lemonade. YUM!!! Never had strawberry lemonade before, it was quite delish if I do say so, and I do so there!

Then in our quest to find the places we wanted to go to... Hobbylobby, Cato, Joann's, Old Navy, possible bookstore... we spotted the golden ticket! Dressbarn!!

So that was our next destination. Before I go on... let me insert the odd thing that happened when we were in the parking lot. We get out of the car and this random lady stops us to ask if we know the quickest? easiest? way to get to chicago from there. Uh...... what? She said wasn't following us but had seen that our license plates were from Illinois and we had a Cubs sticker on the car. Uh...... what? Lady I can barely make it from point a to point b with out a map.. you think I can give you short cuts and hints on a trip I've never made? Weird!! Anywho...

Get there and they have a bunch of cute dresses, hey it's dressbarn of course they had cute dresses. But I was really stoked by the quantity of cute ones! Super pumped you know?

So of course I have to try on 50 dresses after looking for 2 hours... ok that is a slight stretching of the truth. More like 15 dresses after 1 hour. (something like that)

Side notes (have you noticed I make a lot of these) 1. had a lady (different from the chicago bound one) in the store asking our opinion on outfits... What it's speak to random strangers day in Indiana and no one told us?? What in the world. Ok didn't really mind but it was just so... soo.... unexpected. 2. I have been losing weight (if you read my blog at all you know this already) so I was excited to see what "new" size I could wear.

So all those dresses and all that time later I find out I can easily wear 16 dresses (YAY) with the occasional 18 or 14(so funny mom) thrown in there. Also I reaffirmed that I have no decision making skills. Left that store empty handed.

We hit Hobbylobby (where I got paper and adhesive and stamps) and Cato (where I got a purse), Joann's (where I got lots more paper and a few odds and ends) and the mall (where I got nothing but mom got some stuff) and while there we decided it was time for supper. So we ate at T.G.I. friday's. Good food, and waiter had a wicked cute smile, really nice dimple. Then because mom felt bad and I was still determined to get a dress we headed back to Dressbarn, where they recognized us (still makes me giggle) made mom try some stuff on, which she looked really cute in but she didn't totally dig. And I re-tried on stuff and a couple of new things. I was still in love with the dress I liked and mom still liked the one she liked (does that sound redundant to anyone else?) And we just couldn't convince myself to get any of the dresses. We also looked at Fashion Bug ( where they had shockingly few dresses and again a random person talks to us, tells me she likes my shirt which was nice but odd) and Kohl's where I tried some on but they just weren't me. Oh and we stopped at Walmart (because I can never get enough of that place) and got some piddly stuff.

So that was about it. Got some gas for the car and headed back to Newton. Fun day, tiring but fun.

Now... back to today.

Today was another day off day. So what do I do? Plan to go shopping with mom. The girls and I were going to walk, then Lindsay had issues with work (she's very unhappy with them right now) and I couldn't rouse Sarah so that one was nixed. Walked with the momma and then we cleaned ourselves up to shop (this seems to be a pattern we've developed) We ate lunch at Cracker Barrel. Again good food... Have I ever mentioned I love good food? Cause I really really do. Then we went to Kohl's. The friend who's wedding I've been trying to buy a dress for obviously wouldn't be complete without a gift from me. So we went in because she was registered there. They were having a buy one get one free sale... Made me want to buy half the store... I don't know why that is, I guess it just sounds too good to pass up. So we got something similar to what she had on her registery because they didn't have the actual item and got the free thing for ourselves! And then because I can never pass up clothes (I'm not sure when this trend started) I had to try on clothes. Wouldn't you just know it, they had cute dresses! So what do I do? Try them on. And they were cute... and I was again surprised at the size I was able to wear.

So ... because I am just made of money and I still can't make decisions I bought both the dresses I tried on and the cute shorts that fit and the stuff for the wedding and the free stuff for our house!! Again because I am made of money.

After that headed to Walmart (see I told you I can't get enough of that place) to get some groceries that mom had been wanting to get for almost a whole week. And well I had to spend some more money there, but at least it was mainly on food stuffs. That's better right? *ahem*

Aaannnnnyway...... we got home and mom made supper and then after that she asked if I wanted to walk again.

*blink blink* say WHAT?!

I don't know why that was so surprising to me. But after much (internal) debate I finally decided, Yes! I do want to go. And I want to do my jogging! So that's what we did. And I was congratulated by Lance Armstrong for the SECOND time!! Yeah!! Isn't that just AWESOME!!

Makes me giggle! Thank you Nike+!!

So.... that's been my time.

Thank you for listening.

Oh!

And next post? Right after this?? I'm gonna post all the dresses that were tried on (well not all.. just the ones with photos)

Late!!

ps. if there are still anytypos don't mind them... I didn't feel like going back and re-reading this time.

Distance....

2010-06-02T09:01:00.003-05:00

One would think that with everyone a little closer together again it would be easier to coordinate things.

You would think that wouldn't you?

I know I did.

WRONG!

I mean it's not horrible, and if we get a set schedule set up then it'll get much easier.

Ok so buddy Sarah is back in town and she informed me and the Linz that she would like to join us for our morning constitutional. Yay!! Before you know it we'll have a whole gaggle of gals walking with us.

But it goes like this. I live in the middle, almost perfect center. Lindsay lives to the south and Sarah lives to the North. Lindsay works in the west and to get to her home had to come to the middle.... so that worked well. We'd just meet up and then go farther east and walk in Sam Parr.

Now.... how do we get Sarah here with out her having to drive 20 extra miles out of the way??

I just don't know. (Notice I'm the one not driving?!?! I'm ebil like that!!)

So to further complicate matters Lindsay had a doctor's appointment today at 8. Which is usually when she would get to my house. Ok no big the walk will be pushed back a little.

Well I like to walk with the mother as well. So I initially thought, 'Okay mom and I can walk at the normal Lindsay time and then the girls will walk at the normal momma time.'

But then I fell back asleep OOPS! In the midst of doing laundry so I would have nice clean exercise and work clothes I fell asleep. So then things just kept getting pushed back!! Good grief!(as charlie brown would say)

But the walk is about to happen. The girls are on their way and then when that is done momma and I will walk.

Also yesterday I went with the mother to get one of her books for online class this summer and that took up more time than we thought so we didn't get a walk in yesterday morning. So when I was at work I was kind of thinking that I would go for a jog afterwards. Checked with the momma she was down. Well.....

We got out to the track at the high school, it's still roped off cause they are still working on it I guess. And there just wasn't a ton of light in the parking lot, plus it was 11pm and it just felt kind of weird so we opted to not walk.

Now I'm gonna have to fit an extra walk in somewheres because I want to complete my goal on nikeplus!!! I just gotta do it!!!

I just gotta!!

A'ight so girls are on their way and I needs to finish getting ready.

Peace out ya'll!!

The tiniest thing can make all the difference...

2010-05-23T12:46:00.003-05:00

whether it be good or bad.

So this week my knees were killing me as I said before. So Friday after picking Lindsay up we stopped at Cvs in town and I got me a knee brace. Put that sucker on when we got to my house and went for our walk/jog. O M G! I was so amazed what a difference that bit of elastic did for me. During the jog my knee knew no pain! Course by the time of the second jog the knee that was without was killing me so I didn't jog then.... darn it. So need to get another knee brace so I can jog finally!!!

So.... still haven't really logged stuff, I am such a bad kid! But I've been keeping far better track.
And that's where I've discovered that not logging can have such a bad effect on my weight goals. I'm not saying I haven't been losing, but I think it could have been so much better. I realized that when I don't log I don't necessarily eat all of my points (bad), I don't eat all the variety of foods I need like veggies and fruits (bad) and I don't get as much water in as I need to (really bad) Also I haven't been taking vitamins and I don't get my oils in. Bad bad bad! All of these little things amount to big things and little to no weight loss.

I reached my 10% and it's almost like I've lost my drive to do well. Still exercising, still eating healthy but not working as hard at it as before. I've got to get my mind back on track!!

I feel like I've been kind of down and out lately, I don't think work is helping. It's not the entire culprit but it's not helping. Either I need to change work routine or actual jobs. This is easier said than done. I almost think I need to speak to my or at least A manager personally about the time I'm having. Because I don't want to just quit. I like the people I work with, I just need to shake things up maybe. I really think I was much happier when I was just a cashier.

I guess that new leaf is still turning.... because I haven't quite got there yet.
But I will get there.

Recently re-watched 'Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs' which made me think of how he always said what he was doing... maybe I need to do that mentally.

Dialing! Hanging up! (just so funny in the movie when he does that)

But mine should be something like.... 'Re-motivating!'

Or something like that.

Alright I'm out.

Lates

I'm a bad bad kid...

2010-05-19T23:02:00.003-05:00

well... not sooo bad.

Just a little naughty.

Haven't walked with Lindsay since Saturday because of rain, my work and her work and doctor's appointments. Walked Monday with mom in the rain, didn't walk with her Tuesday because of moving and walked with her today. So just a little naughty there.

Haven't logged the food in a day or two.... very naughty in that regard.

Was planning on cleaning on my days off, I'm sure you can imagine how that went.

I just have a knack for talking my self out of things like that. I keep saying, ok at 10am you'll go get hampers and start your laundry.... ok at 11am you'll go get hampers and start your laundry... ok at noon you'll eat lunch and then go get hampers and start laundry... and on and on it goes.

What can I say, it's a skill.

So I've been bad in that way too.

Bad bad bad Kara!

But I admit my faults.... accept them for what they are... and now I choose to work on them and move on.

Hampers were gotten and laundry was collected and is currently in the wash.

In fact I hear the machine beeping at me as I write this. So I'll have to go downstairs and finish that in just a bit.

Walking/jogging with the Lindsay-kinz tomorrow morning FINALLY! Unfortunately have to miss the walk with the momma cause she's going to a meeting for work and I have to work in the evening so we'll miss each other.

I WILL keep track of my food because tomorrow is another day.

And the room will get some more cleaning done to it! I swear it will.

I really would love to be able to paint it next week when I have two days off together. Most likely won't happen but it would be awesome. Not really sure when that's going to happen. There are a couple of other things I want to have done around the time I paint and I really don't know when that's going to get done so we'll see.

Must get self in better gear!!! I've been doing pretty well with blogging and the weight loss and the exercising. Now if I could just stay 100% consistent with everything that would be about just right.

In other news....

Was kind of shopping online (more browsing than anything) went to nikeplus to look for a sensor holder for my new sneakers.

Did I mention that I had purchased new running shoes, I had a pair that were in the style that I wanted but were old and somewhat painful (worn down, caused blisters, not nice) so I really wanted new shoes. I really really wanted a pair that had the sensor spot built in (nikes) didn't find anything like that, but I found some that I really liked. So I've been struggling with how to use the sensor.

Found out on the walk with mom Monday that the sensor MUST be flat to function properly. Walked the same walk with her today as I did Monday and it was a good deal 'longer', The time was about the same but the distance Monday was .20 miles, today 1.8 miles. GAH! It was the exact same walk!

Ok back to the shopping story. Was looking online for a holder for the sensor, they sell those ya know, so I wouldn't run into the problem of wrong distances again and fell in love with a pair (or two) of shoes on the site.

I just bought my running shoes at payless. They are wonderful. I don't need new shoes, plus the Nike shoes are at least $80. That's just higher than I want to spend typically. I mean it's not horrible but..... I just bought new shoes. Then again the nike shoes have the sensor spot built in. AND they are described as being the closest you can get to running barefoot. O.O

If you know me you know what a big deal that is for me! I love being barefoot! It's my foot's preferred state of being. So free!! So that would be... heaven!! Ah what a twisted horrible world it is we live in.

Sweet innocent girls like me are forced to choose between the ultimate shoe and the hard earned money she earns!!!!

*snicker*

Ok ok it's not that bad. But seriously, I do wish I hadn't seen those shoes... or that I had looked at them before I purchased my other shoes. That's what I get for not doing my homework I guess.

Ok best go finish some laundry and get my self to bed. I have to get up to walk with Lindsay!

'New leaf' and all that.

Lates!

Awww maaaaan!

2010-05-12T13:21:00.003-05:00

Ok so rain postponed Lindsay's walk this morning. That's fine don't really feel like going out and struggling through a new exercise and getting poured on while doing it.

And my mind thought 'plus now you'll have your sensor for your first jog with linz!' which would be awesome!

So went out with momma cause the sun was shining by that point. Mother love a duck was it muggy out! But we did it and yay!! But the sensor still wasn't here. But again it was gonna be ok cause I'd just use it the next time.

And then I realized that durn it, I can't walk with momma the next two days because of when I work. Or rather I can't walk with her at our regular time. We'll just have to push it back only about 8 hours. LAME!!

Which also means that I have to work 11-8 service desk. Now first off I like the service desk.
But.... I really dislike working midshift up there. Mainly because you don't work up there. You get pulled to work else where. And I wouldn't mind that so much I suppose but just schedule me as a cashier if that's where you are going to have me work. That's all I ask.

But everything will be ok. Perhaps we will have so many cashiers/sd is so busy that I'll have to stay up at the desk. Or at least that it will be busy enough that the day will fly by but not so busy that I'll just want to come home and drop. (still gots to walk with the momma ya know?)

And the really sad news? Sensor still isn't here.

*sigh*

so lame.

lates

ps. sensor finally came at 4pm! horray!

Two things

2010-05-11T13:38:00.005-05:00

Ok so... due to wanting to wait for my Nike sensor to begin the running process, well let's just say that things are on hold just for another day or two.

Happily I do believe that it's supposed to be here tomorrow. Supposed to be. We'll see when tomorrow arrives.

Another happy note I've lost my 10%!!! I am so pumped about it!

I really want to be able to set another 10% weight goal on the ww site but I couldn't seem to figure it out, well not with out resetting my weight history. I don't want that because I still want to be able to see just how far I've come and I don't think I'd be able to if I reset.

Guess I've got to be happy with what I've got. I am thrilled that I've come as far as I have.

So real quick run down of re-evaluation of the goals.

-Start the jogging with Lindsay
-Lose another 10% (onderland!)
-Run 5k with Lindsay (distance)
-Reach current weight goal 172
-Run in an actual 5k with Lindsay

That be them!! Thems the goals. Totally gonna happen!

Lates

Week One, here we go!

2010-05-09T10:39:00.002-05:00

Monday morning; begining of jogging program.

Here are some awesome tune clues for you!

5 minute warm up: 'We built this city' by Starship
-1 minute jog: 'I got a feeling' by Blackeyed Peas
* 4 minute walk: 'Viva la Vida' by Coldplay
-1 minute jog: 'Hips don't lie' by Shakira feat. Wycliff
* 4 minute walk: 'Glamorous' by Fergie
-1 minute jog: 'Here it goes' by Ok Go!
* 4 minute walk: 'You found me' by The Fray
-1 minute jog: 'Dance,dance' by fallout boy
* 4 minute walk: 'Ain't no other man' by Christina Aguilera
-1 minute jog: 'Pump it' by Blackeyed Peas
5 minute cool down: 'Don't stop 'til you get enough' by Michael Jackson

Now obviously those minute songs... well the originals are just one minute long. We just edited the songs for the part we thought would be the most energy inducing.

Thanks to a wonderful program that Lindsay's got called garage band for helping us to mix this.. and had we had more time (cough apparently i got over my indecision when it came to music) we could have done vocal cues to help us to know when to jog and such... maybe next time we'll do that. But I like it! Very fun and some of the songs just make you want to shake your booty!

I'm gonna see about posting the actual podcast so others can check it out if they want. (probably not but hey you never know)

We are now ready for our first week of becoming joggers!! The only thing I'm missing is my Nike+ sensor. Thing is awesome! Syncs up to your ipod and it tells you how quickly you are walking, tells you calories burned and well all kinds of jazz... and then you input that info to the Nikeplus site and you can link your walk/jog with your routes you can program and then you can see how you did on your walk in real life!! That's just so cool! (at least to me it is!) I've ordered one and I just can't wait for it to get here!! Come on Nike!! Don't let a kid down.

Aight, gonna go celebrate mother's day with the fam now.

Happy Mother's day to all you mother's out there!

Lates!

I runnin!

2010-05-07T11:43:00.006-05:00

So I'm still working on all my goals there to the side and up above, never fear.

But Lindsay and I sort of have a new goal. We want to run a 5k.

Like with the number pinned to your shirt and you start with the gun shot, the whole kit-n-caboodle!

We've been working at turning out bodies into running machines (jogging really but why split hairs) and the programs we've been 'doing' are all with the goal in mind of being able to jog at least the distance of a 5k (3.1 miles for you americans) Which is all well and good, but we discussed that we would actually like to run in a 5k! That would just be so exciting!

So that's our 'new' goal to run in a 5k. Now we are being reasonable about this. We know that it's gonna take awhile to be able to do this. But honestly if we follow the programs and don't injure our selves there is no reason why we wouldn't be able to accomplish this by late September or October. We should be well accustomed to jogging/running by then.

We most likely won't be at our weight goals but we'll be much healthier! And that's always good.

So how are we doing this? Well we have the C-2-5k plan (coach potato to 5k runner) and march/april issue of WW has an eight week plan to get your body accustomed to jogging and nike+ has a coach that has plans for you to switch from walking to running in 12 weeks.

And honestly if those three programs (which are really similar) can't kick our butts and transform us then I don't really know what will.

It's going to take lots of really hard work and dedication but we will do it!!

Want to join us? Believe me it's hard but honestly I can't think of a time that I didn't feel proud and excited to be doing it. I mean pain sure there was some of that but still!!

Not only that but we are gonna track our progress for all of it, in multiple ways too.

Photos(perhaps), music playlists, podcasts made by us, and this fun little site. Lindsay has one too, but I'll let her post it if she wants. But it will update our progress on facebook too so that's a bonus.

Now for the issue.... we really really want to be in the actual 5k, with shirts and medals and everything (not that we expect to win one) but where do you find one? There is surprisingly a site that tells you all marathons and runs and stuff... and when and where. But then the flip is how to decide and how are we gonna travel and... well...

As you can see we don't have the exact details down. I sort of want to pick out the specific run that way I have a definite goal. But I guess we'll get there when we get there.

Main goal right now, to start jogging.

Got a run in mind for me? Let's hear it!

I work hard for my skinny...

2010-05-05T16:18:00.005-05:00

I'll admit it. I'm not a fitness-guru.

This is not a shock to anyone who knows me.

And really you see that weight tracker up above... shouldn't be a shock to you either.

I tend to fluctuate between feeling good and ready to go, to feeling like down and ready to sit down and read a good book.. who needs to be seen when they can happily live in the world of books.

Ok I'm not that extreme, but there are definitely days.

Today was a half-n-half day. Woke up ready to go, felt alright while walking.

Now I'm glad I did it, but man I wish I didn't have to.

It's very emotional loosing this weight. Not like I've struggled with inner demons and won type of emotional. But emotional none the less.

But maybe that's just all part and parcel of changing my self.It's not just outer looks but inner mind set. And man do I have a lazy mind set.

I've no doubt that if I keep doing what I know I should be doing, I'll eventually get to where it's not a struggle at all.

But right now.... The lazy is sort of winning.

So Lindsay and I are doing what's called c25k, meaning couch potato to a 5k runner.

Ooohhhhhoooooo man... I.... there... it's like I can't describe it. I mean... I can kind of do it, but honestly there is nothing like a minute jog to slap you full across the face and say "wake up idiot, you are wicked out of shape!". Seriously, the first minute I was, well alright I guess. The second I was getting by. The third? I'm not even sure I was able to run it all. And there are count 'em nine, that's right nine stinking jogs! Isn't that just mean.

I probably could have done better if it were jog 30 seconds, but nope, jog a minute.

(by the way you have NO idea how many times I've typed job instead of jog while writing this)

I'm proud of us for trying and at least "moving" during the whole thing. But I just don't know.

It really kicked my butt. C25k wins! And another thing is... I know people who are doing much harder work outs than me... and they are winning... maybe it's difficult, but they are winning. It's a little discouraging.

Having said that, I still want to keep going, I just think that maybe we'll have to tone it down a little. I've got a magazine (looks to the bedroom door hoping the mag will flap it's way to me......

nope)

And it has a similar idea for turning yourself into a jogger, but instead of walk 1.5 minutes, jog 1 minute repeat NINE times. It says to walk 4 minutes, jog 1 minute repeat 4 or 5 times (can't remember) I think this I could do. I think four minutes would just about be enough time for me to get my breathing under control and heart rate back down so I can start all over.

I think that's what I want to try. Now if only I can talk Lindsay into it..... (plots schemes for convincing Lindsay)

Gonna go attempt to stretch my leg muscles out...

Lates.

G-g-g-g-g-get wid us...

2010-04-30T00:33:00.004-05:00

I love upbeat music

Especially when it helps to inspire me to move (walk/dance around whatever)

My current fav. 'I got a feeling' by The Blackeyed Peas.

I love the video of them kicking off Oprah's 24th season with the flash mob!!

I love that she was so completely shocked by the whole thing! That's awesome that stuff like that can be pulled. I would love to be in one of those things! So awesome!

This song is definetly walking/jogging music!! It just lends it's self to it.

I need more songs like this... do you know any??? You should share if you do.

I guess though if I am going to have this song on something to help inspire me to jog I need something to listen to it on.... Like an iPod or something. I've been looking at an Ematic which looks like this ---------->

One I just love the fun colors you can get it in....

It's a 4gb mp3 video player, w 2.4" screen and 5mp camera. Sounds awesome to me... and it's only $40 hard to beat.

But is it really worth it? would it be what I really want? I kinda think so.

I dunno... just can't decide. It's a hard hard world I live in here.

But at least I've got rockin music to see me through.

p-p-p-party everyday, I got a feeling

LOVE IT!

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to be or not to be..... who can decide??

2010-04-28T11:04:00.004-05:00

How is it that a person can be an 'adult' and be so confident in some areas and yet in others show such cowardice.

I have the hardest time telling people no. People that are friends/family that is. I mean it's bad. I just don't like to disappoint people. Even when in my head I'm screaming 'NO! I don't want too!' I'll half-heartedly, or over enthusiastically agree to what it is they are saying. Weirdest thing ever.

Also I hate making decisions, absolutely hate it. I have no decision making abilities. (again this is only applying to family/friends) And it's again because I don't want to disappoint people.
My thoughts will be in turmoil, rioting, 'But what if they don't like that... no I better not pick'

Something in me knows that they are asking me to pick because they 1) have the same problem and don't want to choose themselves. 2) honestly value my opinion and want to let me have this choice.

If 1 how mean that you would then make me choose. If 2 how mean that you would make me choose! ;)

Look when it comes to being by myself, I can still have issues picking something out, hem and haw for 20 minutes before I decide whether or not I want to buy a book/movie/cd ect. So trying to accommidate others is just plan difficult.

I've let people down, and made them mad with my inability to decide/say no, I know I have. And to you I say, most sincerely I am sorry. I know I'm a pain in the patoot. But I can't help it.
I lack some gene or something that gives me the skills to be decisive. I'm just sure of it.

Almost positive.

So again... sorry... and..... ....... Stop taking advantage of me! You big bullies!!

(heh just teasing)

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Still getting everything together

2010-04-22T13:26:00.003-05:00

So I'm still working!!

My goals to the side there are still valid.I'm still getting everything together.

Still haven't signed up for classes yet. But I think I just might get to that next week or so. I guess technically I have all summer to get it done, but well... we all know how I am (procrastinator) so might as well get it done now as not.

Working on the weight goal. I've been doing weightwatchers online (eating better) and so far down 17lbs (woot to me). I think I'll have a while til the size goal (getting closer though)

Walking almost everyday with momma which is really good, and I keep meaning to do my exercise video more... hasn't happened yet though. Guess I've got to be happy with what I have.

The blogging clearly hasn't been happening. Like I said I'm getting there.

The room needs some re-cleaning? Needs some dusting, laundry and then hopefully sometime this summer I'll get it painted!! (Fingers crossed kids)

But here's the thing... I know all around I could be doing even better, I could be outside on all these beautiful days we've been having... walking, or well really anything. But instead I stay inside and try to find something fun to do on the computer or I just read, which isn't 'bad', but honestly I could at least sit outside and read.

I'm a really happy with all the progress I've made and I know I'll keep it up.

But I suppose my blog is a place for me to try and kick my self in gear. Complain a little here and re-read it and go "wow what a WHINER!" and then I work towards fixing those things.

So..... notes to self....

Blog more (make it more entertaining too)
Keep up the weightwatchers!
Do Richie video!!
Get that room clean/painted

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.... darn it all

2010-03-05T10:57:00.002-06:00

It's me... I know you're surprised. I haven't posted in.... many many moons.

So here I go, complaining again.

Sorta.

I had a thought.

It was a good thought.

The thought expanded, as thoughts often do.

Now there are images to go with the thoughts.

(here's the complaining part)

I want to be able to capture the images.

I can't draw.

How unfair is that. That there are people who can see an image perfectly in their noggin, but they can't bring it to life.

Very unfair is what it is...................................................... (very atomic)

So now I am done complaining. And thinking to my self.....

If there is any kind person out there that would be willing to take a crack at bringing my thought to life... that would be SVWEET!!!!

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...anyone?

*sigh*

alright, guess not.

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In which I digress from my goals

2010-02-01T14:38:00.003-06:00

Some times I just have no follow through.

My room is like... I'm going to say 93% finished, and I just won't finish it.

Dusting, putting a few things away and laundry, that's it. And will I finish it?!?

Apparently not. Instead I spend a free day reading, and watching movies with the family.

And the time before I go to work hanging out with Sarah, and fighting her pull on me that says "stay home, you don't really need to go to work... stay here!"<----- evil!

Also I've been wicked slacking when it comes to the exercising. So lame, so lame!

Tell ya what.... just no stinking follow through.

I hope that maybe state out loud(on the Internet) that I've been slacking will provide me with the incentive to do better. Hopefully...

On a fun note, helped Sarah set up her mom's new toys, fun fun fun! But it makes me want one!

Such a jealous creature am I!

Ok I think that's it for now.

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So close and yet... no cigar....

2010-01-28T15:43:00.002-06:00

It may be hard to tell.... but I am getting really close to being done!!!! Isn't that exciting... you won't have to hear about my ridiculous room any more, or hear me whine about how I have too much and don't know where to put it all!

I can tell you are thrilled!

I am too!!

I was getting tired of writing about it....

actually I was more tired of having to clean it!

All that is left, and this may sound like a lot (but really it's not so much in comparsion) is to dust the shelves, sort books, vaccum (cause the swiffer isn't picking everything up... poor thing is only so mighty) and then make my bed with the nice clean sheets that I still have yet to wash.

So all in all just kinda minium stuff!

I am soooooo happy!

I can't wait to be finished!

Oh.... and I guess there is that mountain of clothes to wash downstairs... but that's not in the room any more so it doesn't totally count!

In which I take the first step

2010-01-27T10:47:00.007-06:00

I admit it.

I have an addiction.

I think this is not so much of a shock to anyone.

But still there are times when it hits me.... 'whoa, you have a serious problem!'

Today was one of those days.

I've been working on the room some more, this is a major project here people, I kept thinking it was just a matter of cleaning the room, it'll only take a couple of hours.... Oh how very wrong I was.

It'll only take a couple of YEARS!!

Ok slight exaggeration, but it will take a couple of days.

And that's just sad.

But I'm really hoping this will all be over by Friday.

Hopefully.....

(these are pictures of where the books are sitting until I can sort them and put them away properly..... if you'll notice none of these containers are small, also the very vast quantity, so sad. You know in a way that makes me secretly *maybe not so secret* happy sort of sad)

It's quite possibly too much!!

2010-01-26T15:16:00.003-06:00

I am working so very very hard to get this ever loving room of mine clean.

I think I'm going to lose this battle... there is just too much stuff, and no where to put it so I can clean.

I CAN'T win!!!

Pics just so you fully understand (and I can't believe I am doing this....)

Babbling shall commence

2010-01-19T12:18:00.003-06:00

I find that I have to LITERALLY make myself exercise, not because I don't need it, not because I don't want to (or maybe a little bit don't want to) but because I just... it's mainly I don't want to get up and put the video in the vcr. Ha! My exercise videos are in fact vhs! Isn't that awesome!

It's petty of me but I do so love when "know-it-all's" are proven to be mistaken in their theories! It just tickles my funny bone! Got to see that last night at work, I had to hold the laughter in. But it was worth it. Don't think it fazed the guy at all though. (typically doesn't)

I find that I work best under some what strict routines. Apparently I need those firm boundaries. Plus it's much easier to go on autopilot when you have a set schedule.

I want to take photos of a before and after of my room, proof of the amazing cleaning job that would ensue. I find that I can't though. Far to embarrassing.

I love upbeat rockin music. And if it has a loud thumping bass, even better!

I did not want to work a longer shift yesterday, so when they called on sunday why did I say yes? I don't know, but it turned out really well. Got to work service desk for Carla who had a doctor's app. So I guess some how some benevolent being was looking out for me.

I think it's funny that there is sooo much disagreement about what my name is. Or rather how you pronounce it. Lots of people at work really think that it's Kera (pronunciation wise) and others think it's Car-ah.... I figure as long as you are looking at me and call me something with a K sound at the beginning (although I've been known to respond to popeye) I'll respond. I don't really care people. Thanks for being so concerned though.

I have favorite tv shows. I can never watch them. I am always at work. Thank god for hulu!

I wish I had more follow through when it came to writing my stories. I think some of them might actually be kind of good... but I get lost half way through.

I'm not wanting to go to work tonight. It won't be bad, but it won't be fun either. I really wish I worked during the day. That would make me much happier.

I sorta wish I was in school right now (college not anything younger) I almost miss having that interaction with other students.

I think the cat just fell off the back of the couch..... he's tryin to act all cool. (must be super embarrassed)

I think this Friday is to be cleaning day.... I'm really hoping no one else will be home because sometimes... things have to get a lot worse before they can get any better. My plan of attack was going to be drag EVERYTHING out of the room and to start afresh. I can only do this if no one else is around. I don't know why.

Is it wrong to miss the holidays? I feel like I didn't really get to enjoy them. They just flew by. I wish that some how everyone got winter breaks! At least two full weeks. It would never work though. Which is really sad.

I sometimes wish I had a boy friend, just so I'd have some one to go out with. Not just to a movie, not that there is anything wrong with that. But like a nice evening out, with dressing up and everything. I suppose I could do that with friends, but I wouldn't mind having a guy to do that with too. But that's really all I want him for right now. (sorry possible future boyfriend prospects)

Seeley Booth is hot and adorable.

Adam Baldwin is hilarious! My favorite Baldwin (even if he isn't related to the others) Plus... BONUS he's from Illinois (chicago area).

I like being creative, but I usually lack motivation and ideas.

I think I'm done.

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In which I strive

2010-01-18T13:07:00.002-06:00

You might have noticed the list to the left side of the screen.

Those are my new goals.

I suppose 'new' is a relative term. I've had some of these goals for awhile now.

So perhaps I should say I've newly renewed my dedication to them.

I keep being inspired by people around me.

1. My brother has lost all his eight and it seemed to go fairly easily for him (I'm sure it was hard work though)

2. My mom is on a diet (I suppose my thought is 'If she's loosing, I'm loosing')

3. My friends have started exercising (same as #2 if they are, then I am)

4. I have cute new hair... some how the hair makes me want to be... more girly? I rather like styling my hair and (brace your self Lindsay) doing my makeup. So I want a leaner face to go with the cute hair (weird inspiration I suppose) I think the hair is very complementary for my face but I think it could be better! (darn you alice!)

So that's my inspiration for #'s 1-3-4.

Further inspiration... My friends have been blogging a lot more lately and I know I've said before that I will start being more faithful to my writing... but I WILL THIS TIME! (see the list)

Also I currently like my job, I'm mean it has it's issues, what job doesn't. But it's not what I really want to be doing.

Thus we have reached #5.

I worked briefly in the pharmacy in C-pain wally, and suffice to say I LOVED it.

I think I would really like working in a pharmacy full time. To achieve that I've got to ya know.... finish school!!! So... as I said... #5.

Plus while taking said courses I can look into other fun ones (lit. or photo or ya know fun ones)

I might add more goals as time goes on.... definitely gonna update as things are achieved.

I guess these are kind of my resolutions. Sorta, but it's not really things that I'm only trying to achieve this year. They are just the things that I'm working on now.

So there we go. List of goals and my quest to achieve them.

(mission..... quest.......... thing. guess that leaves you out pip.) <---sorry but had too.

Also, the first goal is not the whole goal, just the first small step along the way. I'll update that later.

In which I attempt...

2010-01-14T16:37:00.003-06:00

I attempt to style my hair in fun and new ways... ok so this is just my first day styling it, still wanted it to be cute!

I don't think I did to bad really. I wish the photos came out better... poor lighting and while I kinda like the posing it is hard to take your own pictures.

In which I finally conquer!

2010-01-13T12:09:00.006-06:00

It's time!

Past time really.

I've been wanting to chop my hair for awhile now. And I do mean CHOP!

So.... FINALLY I've gotten it cut!

But just to fully demonstrate how ridiculous it was... before and after for you.

You see how LONG the hair was! I couldn't take it anymore!

And now the after!

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inspired by Alice Cullen's hair in New Moon!

These photos aren't the greatest but I LOVE the hair... I can't wait to play with it!

Fun fun fun short new hair!

Oh I also got the eyebrows ripped out! They really needed it too!

It's that time of year...

2009-12-21T00:23:00.002-06:00

I still can't seem to find the time to write on here with any type of regularity.

But I choose to write about the holidays!

Had to unfortunetly miss out on dad's side of family's get together. Sad!! I mean don't get me wrong I enjoy working service desk, and I know it's not walmart store manager's fault he didn't chooose to let the temps go but man oh man do we need there help.

Happily christmas is this friday.... almost ready for it.... just need a few more gifts and then to wrap them.

I'm excited!!! I enjoy getting to hang with everyone and well.... ok i gotta admit i do enjoy getting stuff too (i also enjoy giving it and surprising people)

While work will be fine.... i do wish i didn't have to go this week. or next.... or well i guess i could just skip out of all work... lol cause i'm just a lazy kid like that.

anyway i'm just excited about the season being here.

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There are days...

2009-11-30T13:18:00.002-06:00

There are days when I love seeing old movies.... actually I typically like watching old movies.

It's also fun (some times funny) to see remakes of old movies.

Watched 'The shop around the corner' with James Stewart sunday and monday watched 'You've got mail' with Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan. Both good and vastly entertaining.

Watched the 1952 version of 'The importance of being earnest' which in turn made me want to watch the 2002 version I have starring Colin Firth and Rupert Everett.

Very fun! Both humorous for their own reasons (typically because they are comedies) and just all around enjoyable movies.

And speaking of movies, looking up info on these movies sent me to imdb.com .... one of the best websites ever!!! You can find out almost anything regarding entertainment, tv shows, actors, movies, music... etc. While looking around on there saw the trailer for 'The imaginarium of doctor parnassus' and the new extended trailer for 'Percy jackson and the olympians: the lightning thief' I cannot wait for either they look so absolutely fantastic!!!

Awwww movies!!! They and books are my main source of enjoyment!

2009-11-18T15:07:00.002-06:00

I keep on trying.

I really do, but I've got nothing!

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Nothing

Sorry to disappoint.

Maybe next week.

The most we can do...

2009-10-12T11:25:00.004-05:00

I have this weird need to be inspired.

It doesn't have to be anything big, maybe just an inspiration to actually fix my hair today, or something deep like becoming a more humane human.

I love reading blogs and seeing how others work towards similar goals themselves. And I guess the thing that I've noticed about said bloggers, I don't think they actually are working towards said goals. Not that they don't hope to be a little bit better of a person day after day. It's just that that isn't what their life is completely about.

I think I look at blogs and go 'oh if only I could be like suzy' and I'm pretty sure that's not what the bloggers are out there trying to do. They aren't out there trying to make you see the lacking in your life. They are most likely out there hoping to write a funny memory to share, just to make you smile.

I think I've got it now. It's not about being profound with each sentence you write. It's living a life that happy and good (as much as you can) and sharing the funny with everyone else.

And maybe there is something just a little .... profoundish in that.

Whoops!

2009-09-28T12:56:00.002-05:00

Where does the time keep going?

I swear each day drags by endlessly while I am at work, and yet I don't know where the time has gone.

Just yesterday it was the beginning of September and now it's virtually October.

*Blink* ... now it's Thanksgiving...

*Blink* ...... Forth of July again....

*Blink* ..... 2025?!?!?! Holy Guac!!!!

TIME SLOW DOWN!!!

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Side note, FINALLLY got my new Sharon Lathan book. ''Loving Mr. Darcy, Journeys beyond Pemberley" Getting close to the end and all I'm going to say right now is.... LOVE IT!!

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In which I sigh

2009-08-31T11:56:00.002-05:00

I love movies. But more I love watching movies with family/friends.

New or old, doesn't matter. I just love some good movies.

So yesterday on TCM they had a Jean Arthur marathon yesterday.

She a really good actress. And I really love some of the movies she's in.

I hadn't seen all of them, but I have now and they are some really good ones.

The devil and Miss Jones, You can't take it with you, Mr. Smith goes to washington, and Shane.

So good. She has a real flair for comedy but she can do serious too. Always a good find in an actor. I think my favorite two though were, You can't take it with you and Mr. Smith goest to Washington. Don't know why exactly, but it might have had something to do with Jimmy Stewart. You can't go wrong with Jimmy Stewart!

So after watching those movies and helping mom with some school stuff it was late but I really wanted to watch a tv show. I was intriqued by it.

Ok so I'm a sucker, I had to watch all of 10 things I hate about you. New tv show based loosely off of the movie. Same characters slightly different plot. Funny, cute, smaltzy but good none the less.

But holy guac! Ethan Peck!! Frijoles that boy! Ok I shouldn't call him boy, he is after all only 2 years younger than me. But man oh man. I admit I get weak in the knees over 'pretty' boys like anyone else. AND not only that but his voice, *excuse me a moment while I squee.....SQUEEEEEEEEEE* Could literally listen to him talk all day.

Here is another fun fact about him, which sort of brings me around to my old movie perspec.
Ethan is grandson of Gregory Peck, actor of such greats as, To kill a mockingbird and Roman Holiday. Those are my main ones for him. And I LOVE To kill a mockingbird.

That was just icing on the cake for me.

Aw family gotta love 'em!

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In which I reminisce

2009-08-28T14:22:00.009-05:00

I admit that sometimes I go back and look over old posts.

See what I've written, try to decide if I was funny or not.

I noticed a few things today.

First, it seems that I either write rather short posts, or super long ones that probably aren't all that fun to read anyway.

Second, I noticed how many times I've blogged about cleaning my room. And this is going to be a little blurb about that very topic again, I STILL haven't cleaned it. So WRONG!!

I'm working on this instead of my room (momma you will be disappointed in this) and just in general feeling rather lazy.

Third, it made me really sad... but as I read a few posts I couldn't remember what the HECK I was talking about. I mean I knew at the time... but now?!?! And it was less than a year ago! I shouldn't be able to forget something like that. That's just weird.

Oh well I guess.

Don't know why I'm being so morose today, just..... not feeling my inner blog-goddess I guess.
Inner blog-goddess... *snort* I crack my self up sometimes. I don't have an inner blog-goddess.

In which I imagine

2009-08-28T00:18:00.011-05:00

So I wracked and wracked my brain for a good thing to write about on here today.

I mean wracked and I came up with a big ol' goose egg.

Bupkis.

Zilch.

I was fresh out of creative juice.

And then I went to work. Which is actually somewhat of a mind productive place for me.

Some of my best work is inspired from my job.

And while it wasn't actually at work that this idea came to me, it was on the way back from that it did.

It's not actually all my creative-ness. I am borrowing from fun., which is the name of the band by the way. fun. That's their name. It's a keeper!

So I was listening to one of their songs on the way home and I know that I've stated that I would love to be an author. Well not just that I want to be an author. I just want to write, just one book would be nice. ANYWAY, my point is that I am frequently inspired with scene ideas by music or well any number of things. And this song put this scene in my head. And seeing as I had nothing else to write about I thought I would give you a sample of the type of writing I would do if only I could conjure up a whole story plot.

You'll have to listen to the song for the full effect. I recommend reading it through once and then you can skim it while listening the second time to really get the full scene.

By the way it's just easier to say this right away. This scene is taking place at a newly-wed's reception. Dinner is more or less over, people have had cake and it's just before the dancing and such. Everyone is talking.....

"Scene inspired by 'The Gambler'- lyrics and music entirely by fun."

"Ok everyone, now is the time that I am going to do something special for my lovely wife and make a bit of a fool of my self. This happens to be one of her favorite songs and it doesn't actually apply to us yet, but I hope it does some day so yeah... enjoy this." the groom says causing his new wife to turn to him in surprise and look at him questioningly.

He just smiled in response.

A lovely tune begins to play on a piano, the bride turns in surprise to see her mother-in-law playing.

And then she hears her husband begin to sing.

"Slow down, we've got time to be lazy.
All the kids have bloomed from babies, into flowers in our eyes.
We've got 50 good years left to spend out in the garden.
I don't care to beg your pardon,
We should live until we die."

Suddenly a violin player stands among the friends at the reception and joins in the song, drawing the bride's attention for just a moment before she turns back to her groom.

"We were barely 18, when we crossed collective hearts.
It was cold, but it got warm when you'd barely crossed my eye.
And then you turned, put out your hand,
And you asked me to dance.
I knew nothing of romance, but it was love at second sight.
I swear when I grow up I won't just buy you a rose."

All the bridesmaids and flower girls suddenly brought the bride multiple and varied bouquets of flowers, making the bride laugh even as she teared up a little.

"I will buy the flower shop, and you'll never be lonely.
Even if the sun stops waking up over the fields,
I will not leave. I will not leave 'til it's our time."

The groom holding out his hand,

"So just take my hand, you know that I will never leave your side."

The groom points to the new members who are now joining in. The best man is dressed in a bib and bonnet and is kneeling on the ground.

"Well it was the winter of '86, all the fields had frozen over.
So we moved Arizona to save our only son."

The best man rips off the baby gear and stands proudly as a man again.

"And now he's turned into a man, though he thinks just like his mother.
He believes we're all just lovers, he sees hope in everyone."

The best man hands the bride the receiver of a telephone that has a long cord attached to another receiver that the maid of honor is holding, who is wear sunglasses with big cardboard blue eyes pasted to them. A few more members join in playing brass instruments.

"And even though she's moved away,
we always get calls from our daughter.
She has eyes just like her father,
they are blue when skies are gray.
And just like him she never stops.
Never takes a day for granted, works for everything that handed to her.
Never once complains."

"You think that I nearly lost you.
When the doctors tried to take you away."

The bride's hand is again taken by the groom as friends and family wheel in a portable fireplace that is 'lit' up.

"But like the night you took my hand beside the fire,
nearly 30 years ago to this day.
You swore you'd be here 'til the day we decide that it's our time.
But it's not time, you've never quit in all your life.
So just take my hand, you know that I will never leave your side.
You're the love of my life, you know that I will never leave your side."

The groom gets up and joins the bridal party on the dance floor and dances a regency era dance befitting the music. He stumbles through a few of the steps but it's the moment that means so much to the bride and she can't help but laugh. By the end of the instruments flourish he rushes back over to finish his song to his bride.

"You come home from work, and you kiss me on the eye.
You curse the dogs you say that I should never feed them what is ours."

The ring bearer brings a tiny puppy in for the bride that has a bow tied to it's collar.

"So we move into the garden,
look at everything we've grown,
and the kids are coming home,
so I'll set the table.
You can light the fire."

Everyone cheers as the song ends and the bride still laughing kisses her husband as he gently wipes away the few tears that his love and care has caused.

"Thank you! Thank you everyone!" the bride finally says into the mike making everyone laugh some more. The reception resumes the normal proceedings of first dances and more, but it will be a special moment that everyone, especially the bride will remember for the rest of their lives.

There that wasn't so bad was it?

I think it's better if you could actually see the scene as it plays in my head, cause it's really funny and so very very sweet. Well anyway, that was really long and it's possibly even longer if you re-read it.

Was it worth it?

In which I giggle

2009-08-25T23:29:00.003-05:00

Ahhhhhh!! There are some days that I love being the odd duck that I am. (*quack*)

Today is one of those days.

I love that at work there are people who look at me and different things happen automatically.

For example, Jessica looks at me and can't help but smile/laugh. I think it's my goofy faces but who knows.

But my favorite is Talina (who's name by the way I LOVE! Taaaaaah-leeena!! So fun) who can't help but get the Charles' in charge theme song stuck in her head every time she looks at me.

I LOVE that! It's so funny! And I know it's happened too because she'll look at me and wave hi, then all of a sudden she scowls and I know the song has arrived!

I am just pure evil! What else can I say.

I suppose I should explain why the song gets stuck in her head.

But it's much funnier to me that some of you don't know.

You just think that people look at me and get a random song stuck in their head.

Aww!!! I win!

... Charles' in charge of our days and our nights.....

Late!

Difficulty

2009-08-21T00:55:00.004-05:00

It's hard when the person you always talk to, can't talk to you anymore.

I mean it's not a permanent loss I've suffered. (My mom's cell phone took an unexpected dip and is no longer functioning.) But it's still hard.

Little things that I want to tell her escape my memory by the time I see her. And when boredom sets in she's the one I'd talk to for entertainment. And she was the one I complained to when things were giving me fits.

So now I'm in a pickle!

I'm sitting here deeply in lament. Wishing I could again speak to her. Just once!

Sniff!

.... This one's for you Momma!

Late!

In which I decide

2009-08-19T17:14:00.002-05:00

I wish that I were better about blogging.

Not only that but I wish my blogs were more entertaining.

I also wish that all of my writing was more entertaining.

So I've come up with an idea that will hopefully make me a better writer.

Lots of authors that I like to read have been asked how to become better writers, and their suggestions are usually to write.

Just write, always write. If you're writing then you are using your mind and learning better ways to use your words.

So this is my new mission.

To write.

It may not be impressive and it may not actually work, but I've been trying.

I want to be more perspective and ... oh I don't know insightful.

So although it may be short, I am going to try and post everyday. And I've been writing a journal.

They may be simple goals but I'm still gonna try.

The ol' gray cow....

2009-08-13T15:51:00.002-05:00

She ain't what she used to be, ain't what she used to be....

Yeah you get what I'm sayin.

I think it's so sad how badly my memory functions sometimes.

Don't get me wrong sometimes it's really great. I mean super spot on at times, like when it comes to books. Go on ask me about the plot of some book that I've read and I bet I can tell you what all goes down (just don't ask for the ending I hate spoiling the ending for people)

But then there are those times when I can't remember if I actually had a conversation with someone, or imagined it, or had it in a dream or what so... yeah. Sometimes my memory really sucks.

Like today, and some of yesterday. I would start to do something and about two minutes into it I'd already forgotten what I was doing. I open a new tab to google with the express purpose to look something up and then it finishes loading and I can't remember what it was.

And it's not like it was anything life changing but still, it bothers me that I can't remember.

*SIGH*

Late

In which I freak out

2009-07-22T10:17:00.003-05:00

So this weekend was a weekend of learning in lots of ways.

I learned about new bands.

I learned about new fashion. (Humor-har)

I learned I apparently can't handle large crowds very well.

SURPRISE!!

Shocked me. But I don't think it was just the crowd it was the entire situation.

You see, it our second day of the festival (sunday which was actually day 3 of pitchfork) and it was almost time for the last band. The Flaming Lips! WOOOOO!! If you don't know the Flaming Lips I feel sorry for you! They are an AWESOME band!

Anyway back to the story.

My brothers and I had packed up our gear and headed into the fray while the band before the lips, were still on stage. That way when those fans left to watch something else or whatever we would be able to move up politely into those empty spots. Get our selves into good positioning for the final concert! We took our time, only moved into empty spots when they became available. Easy!

So we had gotten, fairly close within confettie distance at least, and had at least an hour to kill.

Now I suppose I should have mentioned that the day before when we had gone over to watch Beirut, we had people say "Excuse me" we'd make a path for them and then they just stood right in front of us. Wanted to knock their blocks off. But this was far far worse.

Ok so Flaming Lips is the Head lining band, so of course people want to see them, and of course they also want to be close. But here's the thing. Knocking people over in your quest to get closer to the stage?

NOT COOL!

I mean seriously people, common sense? Yeah I thought so.

But I am getting ahead of my self. Ok so we had gotten to about the position we wanted to get too. (but if a big opening had occured we would have tried for it) So we were just chillaxin and having a good time, thinking about the fact that we had an hour to kill standing in one spot, but at least we kept getting glimpses of Wayne and Steve and so on.(Lips in case you were wondering) People were kinda gently pushing against our backs in an attempt to get the whole crowd to move foward so they could be closer.

I am still doing good at this point.

Don't know how it happened really, I think it was the guy who came to sit with his group of peeps (also not cool by the way, taking up lots of room sitting when everyone else is standing) and made me stand really close to the people that were in front of me, like wicked close, so close I might as well have been part of this couple.

Now I have a very large personal space bubble, but I can shrink it down in crowds, but this was beyond my comfort level. Their's too I think. But I couldn't help that. And it made me further uncomfortable when more people around me decided to sit. There honestly wasn't room for that, unless they wanted to be stood on.

And the other problem with them sitting? It made it look like there were big gaps that people could come fill. So there had been a few stragglers who shoved their way through and then got to our area and realized, oh crap there isn't anywhere for me to stand, and happily most moved on, but not all.

And then...... oh and then....

Ok so we were crowded, I'm getting really uncomfortable from the odd stance to accodomate people close to me sitting and standing. When out of no where, I hear a voice say "excuse me" with an infliction that hinted at the fact that they didn't really care. I braced my self thinking, 'No way, there just isn't anywhere for me to move, find a different path'... When

*WHAM* I get knocked down.

Ok so they shoved me and seeing as I literally only had the one spot for my feet I got tangled and couldn't keep my blance and fell backwards.

At least my brothers were standing behind me. I mean I knocked into Jacob really hard. But ya know not as bad.

But this evil twit who shoved me just stops right where I had been standing. My brothers braced me and stood me back up and made a slight adjustment so I had a place to put my feet but she and her little posse just stood there. Josh flipped!

He literally snapped, I mean Josh is a mellow guy but I guess you don't knock his sister over and not even look to see if she's alright.

"Are you kidding me? No. Keep moving" he says and grabs the twit's backpack. She spins around, knocking into more people all offended.

"Move where?"

He just points and says 'That way'

"There are people over there." (Brillant one this evil twit from hades)

"There are people here." I snap at her. She just gives me this 'oh please' look.

Josh was still hoppin mad. "There isn't room here, people moved from over there, keep going."

"Did you just grab my backpack?" She suddenly asks like that's the worst crime ever committed.

(No ok, not super cool to grab a backpack but it was just to get her attention not like he yanked her off her feet... or ya know knocked her off her feet)

"Keep moving." he just says.

"That really rude, you just don't grab some one's bag" She looks to me like 'are you really with this guy'.

"It's really rude to knock people down." I say, she responds with the 'oh please' look again. (Can I punch her now. I mean I don't get angry all that often but man oh man please can I?)

I think she got a look at the situtation and realized there are three quite large people (two males) mad at her right now and she is there with her group of two tiny females and one little emo boy. Ok new tactic. Get on the big girl's side of things, get her to feel for you.

"That's just what a concert is, yesterday I was watchin a band and this girl in front of me kept flicking her hair into my face. You just deal"

...................

..............................................

Seriously?!?! You think getting smacked in the face with someone's hair, while not nice is the same as knocking people over in your quest to be closer to the bloody stage?!?!?! Ok fist is forming.....

Little emo dude is trying to calm everyone down, I don't think he wanted to defend his friend's honor against my brothers. Finally she just turns around (Her and her stupid backpack) and trys to ignore us. I guess it was hard to do because she kept shooting dirty looks over her shoulder at us, she started talking to the people around us about the rudeness of some people at these things.

I am not cool anymore.

I still want to punch this twit, and all her friends, I want to take out all the stupid sitting people and on top of all that I am standing with my feet on top of each other cause I have no room and I'm leaning really far back because of her stupid bag.

I lost it.

I freaked out. I admit it.

The breathing turned to wheezing and I was getting tears in my eyes and I was literally freaking out. I turned to my brothers said "Give me the bags" (we were smart and had our bags at our feet) and said "I can't take it, I'm freaking out. I'm out" and waited for them to part. Jacob seemed shocked but I was seriously gonna start punching and puking and screaming. I had to get out of there. Josh grabbed the bags from Jacob and started to leave, I told him he didn't have to move but he just made a path for me to get out of there.

Gotta say people are much nicer about moving when you are leaving and crying and hyperventilating. They smile at you like 'aw poor little lamb' and move for you. Annoying but it worked.

We got out of the crowd and I am crying a bit more cause I feel so bad making Josh miss the show, but I can't talk about it, I can't freaking breathe.

He opens the chair we had with us and tells me to sit, asks if I want a drink. I just shook my head trying to calm down. I really didn't want to throw up but that seemed like what I was going to do.

ANYWAY... I finally calmed down and the show started which was making me cry (ya know tears running down my cheeks, not sobbing) cause I am making Josh miss the show, but he said it was ok he had been just about to send the stupid twit crowd surfing. Show was awesome, but I didn't get to watch it from the place that I had wanted too.

Suffice it to say I apparently can't handle large crowds cause once I was out of that I was able to cool out. Sorta.

I still feel bad for making Josh move, though I did tell him he could stay. And I wish I hadn't let that stupid twit get to me but.... what are ya gonna do.

That was a kinda crappy way to end what had been such a great festival. But we still go to see the Lips. So all's well that ends?

What's your opinion? Did I freak out or what?

(wow that was a long story)

In which I couldn't help but laugh

2009-07-22T10:02:00.006-05:00

Ok, so while at this festival, We got to see lots of really awesome things.

Good bands, good art, good food...etc.

And then.....

There was the not so good.

Unless you wanted a laugh. And oh man did I laugh.

I don't know if these people genuinely thought, hey this paisley print top with these leopard print capri and yellow sunglasses are a good look, or if they just blindly grabbed what was handy. Maybe they dressed that way because they knew it would be sure to draw attention.

What ever the case, it certainly got mine.

Those are just the few pictures I managed to capture, I didn't really snap too many weird outfit pics the second day. And some are far more weird than others.

Weird egg decoration in the hair... odd but not too bad.

Weird rose printed onesie body suit with black pleather micro mini and white fur vest with hair in a pony straight from the top..... that was my elusive character. She was fast and I just wanted one good shot that would capture her.... uniqueness. I told Josh as he was chuckling at my attempts to capture this mystical creature that I felt like what those people trying to catch 'Bigfoot' must feel like. You just won't believe the story unless you see the proof... I MUST have proof!!!

Funny funny funny.

Thank you random people dressed in various and silly ways. You make me oh so happy!

Next post... my bad story from pitchfork.

In which I hear some music

2009-07-21T11:44:00.003-05:00

Just a few pics from the fun that was had there at Pitchfork Festival '09!

It was surprisingly cool all weekend, and who wasn't prepared?? Yeah that's right, me.

Ok so I took some jeans and leggings so that way I wouldn't be as cold but did I wear them? Nope sure didn't.

Ah well it was still really fun.

If you want a fun music filled weekend, then Pitchfork in Chicago is a really good choice.

If you plan it right, or don't mind missing a few bands, you even have time to see some of Chicago.

We didn't really have that option, unless we wanted to be up and going at like 6 in the morning, but that's because of the train we had to catch to get into Chicago. Not complaining, just kinda wanted to see Navy Pier but maybe it'll happen another day.

It was lots of fun and lots of really good music.

And I gotta say, I do enjoy getting to spend time like that with my brothers.

The theater, the theater....

2009-07-15T15:07:00.004-05:00

Oh how I love the theater!!!! Not only do they let me watch WICKED awesome movies such as Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, they also give me peeks at what is to come!!

But let's stick with the Harry Potter review for now....

I loved it! I gotta say I really enjoy David Yates directing style (he also directed HP5) I think he/the screenplay writer have done a fabulous job of fitting as much of the story line in as they can. You gotta admit that they are big books so it's no easy task. The only thing left out of 5 that I missed was the quidditch (I mean come on! Ron is the King in that one! Weasley is our King!) and the only thing that I wished they had covered more in this one are the 'horcruxes' what each one is/could be. Thing is I think they figure most people that watch these movies are also fans of the books, so not EVERY TINY THING needs to be covered. But I think it just would have saved time for the next films. Now it looks like Harry and pals will have to 'figure' it out all on their own.

Having said that, I loved everything else about this movie. I loved Dumbledore even more this one. I think most people will agree that the original Dumbledore was the Dumbledore, but seeing as he passed... well this new one has been growing on me more each film and I gotta say this one, he was just about the perfect 'Dumbledore' for me. A nice combo of spry wit and old age showing through. I like that, when Dumbledore makes those off the wall comments that just make you blink in surprise... It's just great! And you may not like him, but you gotta admit Albus Dumbledore's got style!

The kids are as great as ever, and I do so love goofy Harry/Ron! When they have both taken a potion (Ron a love one, Harry the luck one) they are so.... so..... Just so funny. I love getting to see silly sides! And they do great jobs of behaving in believable ways. Poor Hermione just can't seem to catch a break when it comes to love! And I loved her story about her dad needing stitches! Makes me laugh.

I really do believe that this movie is one of the best so far.

It does make me sad to say... only two more to go. (But at least I can say two yay that!)

Now for my squealing..I think I might have actually squealed out loud with my unbelievable joy when I saw/figured out what sneak peek trailer I was watching.

I am so excited about Percy Jackson and the Lightening Thief!!!

I didn't even know that was going to be made into a movie! You just wouldn't believe how excited I was to learn of that. It was possibly the most exciting thing for me that night.

Now I say that and maybe you are thinking to your self... what kind of crap is that. Kid goes to see the midnight showing of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince and she didn't even enjoy it as much as a trailer?

I'm not saying that at all! It's just that I knew I was going to be watching Harry Potter, I knew what to expect in that movie, I mean I've read the books how many times?? But the trailer that was a complete and TOTAL surprise! So it was the most exciting bit of the night. Not necessarily my favorite part of the night, but the most.... well surprising!

All in all a really great time to be had with me mum and pally Sarah.

Ok so i am lame...

2009-06-26T15:44:00.004-05:00

looking at other's blogs, where they talked about how they possibly wanted their hair made me want to look at pictures of how i wanted to do my hair.

Ok first... this is how I was thinking of doing my hair for sarah's wedding...

and then this is kinda how i would like to do my short hair...

alice cullen

inspired by alice (kind of a play on her hair)

and here is another choice... i actually like the thick line of bangs, doubly so with the messy layers

so what do you think??

There are days....

2009-06-16T21:30:00.003-05:00

.... when I just like to be silly and take tons of quizzes on facebook. For example, tonight I took a bunch about 'soulmates' and such. Kinda funny... and oddly what I would want actually. Which is a little spooky, but not that realistic. I mean these quizzes are usually 5 questions long, how accurate can they be?

But doing that did make me.... well a little sad. Course that could also be from all the friends and family getting married lately. And here is little ol' me single as ever.

It's not so much that I need a significant other, it's that it would be nice to have a special someone who shares a more intimate aspect of your life. Also I can't help but seem to want more out of my life.... I want an actual career, not a job that is just something I do for cash, but something that I enjoy and actually chose to do. Hence some more school this fall. I would actually like a home of my own. Not a rental-type of thing, but a home. One in which I can do what I wish.

I think that comes from the bathroom remod that's been going on here at home. I'm not saying that I want to do the bathroom differently from how it's being done. I'm saying that I want my own to do anything I want. Purple carpet, red walls, green ceilings, blue furniture... ya know anything (by the way would NEVER combine those things... I was just throwing that out there)

I think... and this is a rather shocking thing for me... but I think I'm actually growing up.

I think I've matured and now want things that are more adult. Which is just surprising as all get out.

But there it is. I was super surprised when one of the csm's at work tonight said she was surprised to learn that I wasn't her age. I asked why and she said I am just so mature she assumed that I was older than 24.

Blew my mind, I can honestly say that the number of people who have said that I was mature for my age is oh...... about 1 now. (Hee hee... I'm not really I have a very high immaturity level)

But knowing how I have been feeling lately... maybe I am getting more mature.

Well it was bound to happen at some point. (Don't worry it's not to very serious yet I still have lots of silliness in me)

So.....

2009-06-08T11:02:00.004-05:00

Hey hi.... how's it going?

It's been way, way, waaaaaaaaaay too long since I've blogged on here.

Not really any excuses either. Just haven't.

First I didn't have anything I wanted to say, then I couldn't seem to find the time, and well..... just haven't.

So here is a quick run down.

Work has been an almost everyday type of thing, which is good in the money sense.
Had a girl's day with Grandma, Aunt Donna and momma, shopped, watched a movie, ate and laughed.
Watched a couple of movies with my friends, not to mentioned played some good ol' RB!
Been trying to find bridesmaid gowns for pal-y Sarah's wedding, finally got those ordered this weekend which is good..... still have to find the shoes though.... gonna have to look around for those.
Still trying to find an outfit for pal-y Lindsay's reception, got some cute bottoms but haven't figured out a top yet.
Went to a couple of wedding-ish functions, a bachelorette party and a bridal shower... that was all in one day too!
Re-modeling the bathroom..... ok so I've only helped along about 1/6 of the progress... my brother has been pretty much heading up this project and he has completed most of the work, mom has done everything else that he hasn't. I am just a big slacker. I did help come up one of the major colors though.

So those are the things that are happening around me right now.

Next weekend is to go like this.... Free day-Friday, Wedding/reception-Saturday, Fireworks trip?-Sunday.... the trip, the trip, if nothing else I do believe my brothers are going to go and I'll hitch along with them but they had been wanting it to be a big group of people cousins and uncles and fathers and whatnot, so who knows.

I can't really think of anything else to say.

This whole thing hasn't been very witty or even funny.... just thought I'd do a little catching up.

Lates

There must be something in the air...

2009-04-29T22:55:00.003-05:00

First a blog writer that I enjoy reading (cjane) was too sick to write a proper blog (you should read that post it's funny) and now I am feeling all crappy too!! Not nice at all.

I could blame the new job which exposes me to other sickies not to mention all their money which is coated in germs no doubt. But I've been leading a very sheltered existence lately so work has also forced me out into the world where I've been forced outside where the pollen can get me.

So either I've caught something from an evil customer who shared far to much of themselves, or the outside world has struck me down.

Either way I've got a sore throat, ucky cough and sore ears too. (Personally I'm thinking outside world... feels like a sinus infection to me I've had enough of those to know)

Anyway, I don't know if any of you have noticed but I am a bit of a complainer.... it's how I do... anywho.... I complain a lot!! But I've been trying to keep the whining to a minimum....

Now I look back at this post and realize that I've failed horribly.... when I feel it's ok to blog about being sick I am obviously complaining freely.

So sad (pathetic sad, not ya know... heart wrenching sad)

Oh well.... just how I do

Lates (cough cough)

ps. maybe it has something to do with the sickness... but I am having the aboslute hardest time spelling correctly tonight.... hmmmm must look into this.

Ha! Who knew I was such a genius?!

2009-04-24T12:01:00.002-05:00

I never knew it, I mean I never knew it. Complete surprise to me!

So I've been working on a story, have most of it written really... but I decided it needed re-working. Rules changed, circumstances and what not, even a few characters changed.

At first I thought I was a big idiot for even attempting to change my story which was rather complicated and involved anyway.

SURPRISE!!! Turns out what I've wanted to change has worked out quite brilliantly. See genuis!

Just never knew how utterly brilliant I was.

Well I'm off to continue my great stroke of brillance!

Lates!

Well it's finally offical

2009-04-20T18:34:00.003-05:00

I am once again a Wal-mart employee. Glad for the job and money.... not so excited about having to go through all the training agian... well no all the training but still enough that it's a pain in the butt. Still it's a job and that makes me happy.

They kept me in the dark as to where exactly I would be working. Now that has been revealed to me too, I am to be a cashier. It was debated whether I would be a Garden Center cashier (which I kinda wanted) and a regular cashier, so ya know... now I know.

So, I guess that's all I got. Supper is ready and I'm hungry for a yummy burger and FUNYUNS!! Oh how I love me some funyuns!! Yumer yumer yumer!

Alright...Lates!

How vast and deep...

2009-04-17T16:03:00.004-05:00

OCEAN

An ocean (from the Greek Okeanos 'oceanus') is a major body of saline water fresh water, and a principal component of the hydrosphere. Approximately 72% of the Earth's surface (an ocean of some 361 million square kilometer) is covered by ocean, a continuous body of water that is customarily divided into several principal oceans and smaller seas. More than half of this area is over 3,000 meteres (9,800 ft) deep.

Isn't that amazing.

More to this random-ness later.

Oh so very very yummy!

2009-04-15T14:41:00.004-05:00

I do so love me some Pride and Prej. I mean it's is one of my favorite books. So good!

Recently I found a 'continuing tale' entitled Mr. and Mrs. Fitzwilliam Darcy, Two Shall Become One. Oh my word so good. Sharon Lathan is so talented. Not only did she gracefully combine the two stories, making it seem like something Jane Austen her self could have written, she does it in such a way that it still gives her her own voice. Really good stuff.

Only and I do mean only, downside to this novel is that it's only the first one, there are two that have scheduled releases coming up soon-ish and more to come after that.

So ya know, having to wait is a real bummer but hey what are you gonna do?

So very very good, and not only that she has her own website (as many author's do) and it has fun things for all to enjoy as well! http://www.darcysaga.net/ check it out if you are a fan, see all the fun things you can see!

Welp I'm off. Gots to find something else fun to read!

Lates!

Easter and stuff

2009-04-11T09:30:00.002-05:00

I don't know if you have noticed, but I seem to have blog a.d.d. in that I just can't seem to leave the background alone. It's thecutestblogontheblock.com 's fault. They have so many cute options I just can't stop.

I'm really diggin this one right now though, so it'll probably be awhile before I change it again.
I think it's got a nice spring vibe flowin through it.

So I don't know if it was my subconscious mind's way of reminding me that Easter was here when I had forgotten, but I had a wicked weird dream. (Nothing new there eh?)

I'm not going to go into the details, not the point of this entry (don't know that if it actually has a purpose but whatev) my point is, isn't the brain odd. It does what it can to help us even if we do have a few misgivings about it. Good ol' brain. Further proof that it wants us to succeed.

Ok I think I am now done rambling in my sleep befuddled state. (Just thought I was due to blog and this was all I could think of to talk about)

Lates

Oh and ...........

Happy Easter!

The best laid plans...

2009-04-08T15:03:00.004-05:00

Anyone who knows me, probably knows exactly how reliable I am.

Well I guess I should qualify that... I can be extremely reliable when it comes to certain matters.

But then on others...... well.....

I've had several plans ruminating in this ol' noggin of mine. And this past Saturday I put another one in there. I came up with an idea for a scrapbook type of project. I really want to make these things!!! (And no I won't say what it is... there are people out there who it WILL remain a surprise for!) Thing is... I have several other things I need to do before I can do the fun things.

So here is what I do. I make lists... lots of lists.

Current list:

Edit Jess' paper. --- Dishes at Sarah's.

Clean room. --- Call Walmart.

Clean anything. --- Clean for Cheryl.

Work on story. --- Work on scraping project.

You see my problem. I make a list and just don't follow through.

Ok so I've started a couple of them. But..... I can almost guarantee that the entire list won't get finished.

Ah if only I was more reliable. What are ya gonna do??

ps. called walmart since writing this.... the whole process is just dumb!! Makes me not want to job.... well almost.

p.p.s oooh!! Look at that!!! One more item off the list!!!

Interviews.....

2009-04-01T17:20:00.003-05:00

So I had an interview with....(sigh) walmart.

Don't get me wrong... I would love a job, I just.... is it evil to say I really didn't want to work for walmart again, and now that I've admitted it out loud at least more than once, I probably won't get the job. It's not so much walmart, or the job (cashier in L&G) it's.... I dunno, I guess it's that I've done walmart and I know that it's not something that easily leads to bigger and better ya know? Then again most jobs that I've had don't exactly lead to that so.....

Anyway on with the complaining... yes complaining.... I feel that my blog has become a place for me to vent my feelings, whether good or bad.

I knew some of the people going in, I mean hello I worked at that store half a year and shopped there besides, yeah I should know some of the people. So that was ok, kinda nice actually. But I hate stupid interviews.

The questions are supposedly designed to find out how good you are at teamwork, multi-tasking, handling responsibility... stuff like that. Questions like give me a time when you were working with a team, what was hard about it, what did/could you do to make it better, what did you learn from it all?

I mean, the heck?!?! Could we make this any harder? Not to mention, anyone can make up a story to paint themselves in a good light, and you wouldn't know that they are actually a really bad person to have working for you until they are causing you problems, or someone could stammer all over their answer and sound incompetent and in truth they are dedicated employees.

Ok I get that they have to try and weed people out some how, but I seriously hate those type of questions.

Don't know if I got the job. Who cares that I worked for Walmart for more than a year, who cares that I've done this exact type of job for around 5 years. It all depends on if the stupid computer thinks that I answered the questions well enough to go ahead and hire me.

*sigh* why couldn't I have heard from the library. I really want that job. I mean really really really want that job. But it's probably already filled.

Oh well... such is the life.

And again don't get me wrong, if walmart wants to hire me, I'm all for it.... just feeling anxiety over it all.

My day is just not complete...

2009-03-31T18:31:00.002-05:00

.....unless I've caused some sort of trouble for someone!!!

I feel so much better!!!

Which means?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! ehh??? any one?!?!

That's right! I... without even being there (well at least not at the exact moment of the evilness I've wrought) I have tortured Sarah's fragile little mind!!! Muahahahah!! Heh! That's what she gets for putting the info in MY mind in the first place!!!

Now.....

Who can I torture tomorrow?!?!

Isn't it odd...

2009-03-30T18:28:00.002-05:00

Just when I start to give up all hope, a little ray of sunshine peeks through the clouds and causes a little blossom of hope to unfurl it's petals.

So there are no sure fire guarantees in life, but there are some fun little surprises sometimes.

Even if said surprises aren't exactly what we were looking for, they are usually something we can enjoy, and just maybe the path to something better.

Isn't it just a little odd...

Ah, Spring!

2009-03-17T15:25:00.006-05:00

I do love you so!!

I've been feeling very spring-y today, not like I was a spring, but very much in love with spring, spring-y. You see the difference now.

Didn't want to wear half my wardrobe because the colors were just all wrong. When I finally decided on a good spring-ish top I had to dress it up with my new necklace! SOOO cute!! Also took a page from that cutie Elizabeth K. and gave myself a headband. Just needed something cute for the hair ya know?

Yup definetly spring time! And if you need further proof you should listen to the first song on my music play list. If nothing else you'll get a good laugh.

I chose the green color in honor of st. patty's.... can anyone explain this tradition to me? Why do people get pinched if they don't wear the color?? It's just beyond me.

Ok so St. Patrick's color is actually blue, so you see we shouldn't even wear green (techinally) but I guess enough Irish people would wear shamrocks and call it 'wearing the green' and that's how that got started. But WHY the pinching??!?! Still so lost on that front.

You just might be shocked to know that while selecting my spring outfit I did NOT choose any green. (and I'm a girl who likes her green clothes) But I say I was safe for I have a green purse! Well, and I further provided safeguards against pinching fingers by wearing blue and yellow, and anyone who knows their color wheel knows that blue and yellow make green! You see!!!! I was safe all along.

Welp I'm off to see if I can't find a few pretty spring flowers to capture pictures of.

(humming the chorus)

Peace

Let it be known,

2009-03-17T09:59:00.002-05:00

through out all the land....

I am going to get my self in gear!!! Seriously! I am! I'm gonna exercise, cause I really need it. I'm gonna try harder for those jobs, cause I really need one, and I'm gonna stop being such a lazy bum!!!

SERIOUSLY!!!

*to any heavenly powers that be... could ya maybe help me out a little? Please?!?*

It's all on the list...

2009-03-13T12:40:00.003-05:00

Step one: respond like the true fan that I am (I've been slacking) CHECK

Step two: edit the story like I promised about four months ago (I am the worst person ever!) CHECK-ish

Step three: clean the room that's needed it for a really really long time (it only ever got cursory cleanings) again the cursory work continues, at least I started again though

Step four: Start typing! (I have about three story starts that I've been wanting on the computer I'm just to lazy to type it up *plus I owe an update*) can't even put a faint check on this one

Step five: Blog...blog...blog! (if this thing is even going to be worth having I MUST blog) working on that check right now

Step six: Gots ta head to my paying gig! *at 5* (But let it be known!! I told her she didn't have to pay me)

Ok I think I'm out of steps, but that's the current list. I'm sure there are others who would like me to add more to it (my mother for example would most likely like me to add cleaning the toy-D room but ya know.... we'll see, maybe that will be a surprise step)

If you can think of any steps I might need to add let me know! It might be important!! Ok off to try and make a bigger dent on two or three (I really want to have three done I just don't want to have to do it)

Lates!

I'm a slacker and that's ok, I sleep all night and I sleep all day...

2009-03-03T12:47:00.002-06:00

Anyone? anyone? Monty Python?? Ok so I took a few liberties with it.... ah well.

It's still true. I am SUH-LAC-KING!! Last post about v-day... have I no pride??

Ok I have pride I just haven't really had anything to blog about. It would help if anything ever happened in my life. But pretty much it's always the same day in, day out. And not really any of it is exciting.

What's a kid to do?

Well, it still holds true, nothing new to report.

I guess I can tell you that Valentine's day was really fun, lots and lots of laughter. The baby shower, also fun. Miss got lots of cute stuff for baby Mackenzie.

Saw her and Ben, Brad and Linz, and Sarah and her cousin Melissa this weekend. We all went out to eat at the mexican place here in town, Love that rice and cheese man! Again lots of laughter. So that was some fun to be had.

After diner Sarah, Melissa, Lindsay and I all went back to Sarah's for some more fun. They like to torture me they do. Picking on me! So cruel! ;)

Anyway, that's it. Not really much of anything else to report.

See... I told you nothing happened.

So what is a kid to blog ABOUT?!?!

I guess about nothing.

Sorry for the rambling.... but it'll probably happen again so ya know, there it is.

late!

Yay!!

2009-02-12T19:53:00.003-06:00

I gots a new phone!

I am a little undecided actually...

sorry phone. It's not that it's not cool. It's more that I've been helping mom figure out stuff on hers and well... now I like hers. Mine is fun too though! Don't get me wrong. I got an enV2 and it's neat-o! I love the keyboard, wasn't sure I would, but I do. I just need to play around with it. Gots to figure out where everything is. I'll really like it when I have all of my music on it. That will be even more fun, I enjoy getting to use mom's phone to listen to music so it'll be fun to do the same with mine.

But we'll see in a few weeks time. I'll probably love it! I definitely already love it more than my old phone.

On a different note...Valentine's day is this weekend. As we all know... I'm pathetically single, but a group of friends/family is getting together and going out to eat. So Saturday is going out to eat with friends.

Then Sunday is one of said friend's baby shower! So that will be fun too. Busy busy weekend!

Welp I'm off to play with the fun some more.

Peace

Cleaning day... eesh

2009-02-06T13:21:00.004-06:00

Ok... I admit it.... I can be really organized. I can! But usually.... not so much.

And of late.... yeah not really at all.

But .... and it's been a long time comin'... cleaning day is finally here.

I think...

I mean so far it's going ok, it's starting to look like a habitable room again... but I bet I could be doing a far superior job.

If I buckled down and really got too it.

I could....

But...

hee..... we'll see.

If it does get cleaned completely I'll take a pic and post it!! Maybe that'll be insentive for me to really hunker down and get to it....

Maybe

....................probably not though...

Lates!

Dishes, Dresses and Drifting Snow.... oh my?

2009-02-04T08:52:00.004-06:00

So let's do a quick run down of the weekend.

Friday finally got over to Sarah's to do the cleaning I said I would do. Played a little P.o.p first then got down to business. I was proud of the amount I got done, but I kinda felt like I should have been able to do more.But Sarah was pleased so, all's well and all that.

Later went out to Lindsay's we got some food for several of the people who work with her fiance and of course ourselves. *Mmmm Joe's* then we went shopping at Walmart. When we got back we decided to play a little RB, and that again it was time for make-overs!! I don't know why we like to completely change our look on the game from time to time, but we do. Sarah was going to come out but it was rather late, she was tired, we were tired so I just headed back. Not to mention we had to get up early the next day.

Saturday, when we were up bright and early, we headed off to Farina for bridesmaid dress shopping. Let me just get this off my chest right off the bat... It would have been a total fun filled day if I were a size 12, just a size 12. 14 wouldn't have been that bad but OOOOHHHH NO! I am definitely not in that size frame. It's just wrong! The first place had lovely people working there and a nice range in style and color of dresses but not in sizes. Oh they would order a lot of different sizes but they didn't carry samples of those sizes in their store. Which is just wrong. I'm not saying have every dress in each size in your store, but try to have a dress size in each style. Is that so hard. Then you at least get a better idea of what 'dress x' looks like because 'dress g' has a similar build. I mean come on!!

Anyway the second place we tried, on a whim. Wasn't so bad. One it was close to closing time, two we didn't have an appointment. So the people were nice, just not right there wanting to help us all the way. Which ya know it was like 15 til closing, I don't fault them. They at least carried dresses in a more varied of sizes. But we didn't really find what we were looking for there. *Sigh* So next Saturday we are going to a D.B., as far as we know they tend to carry a much more varied size in dresses so that will be good.

Now that's not to say we didn't have a good time, we were goofing around in the car with the camera. Just taken silly pics. And we always joke around, so the whole trip was fun, just would have been that much better if we could have worn some dresses.

Anyway, I went out to Lindsay's with her, we watched some tv with Mr. Bradley. Later when Sarah came out we watched a movie, had some chili and played a little RB finally!! She got to see our new looks! It was fun!!

Sunday was the big game day, you know the finale in football, yeah apparently there is a big stink over saying which bowl it is but I think you know what I mean. Didn't go anywhere or do anything really. Just stayed here with the fam, had some pizza and lil wienies. Watched the game, wasn't that interested in who won or who lost. But it was a good game.

Nothing really monday, dad was home tryin to make his room look nice for the guy who was bringin over his new machine. I've already forgotten what it's called but, it keeps you breathing while you sleep. We went out to eat together but really it was a pretty low key day.

....ahhh now we come to it...

Tuesday, snow day for mom, so she was home. Lindsay text me about a possible job at Bradley's work that I need to apply for. I'm all for it. BUT at about the same time, a friend and co-worker of my mom's called and told her about a possible job opening. I really hope I get this one. Not that B's place of work would be bad, but I'd love to work in an office if I could, not to mention I would pretty much be hired on as full time right away, not as a temp. I'll take whatever I get, don't get me wrong. Just if I had a choice, I want the 8-5, no weekends job. Eh just me.

So anyway mom and I decided we better put an app in right away, we want to be first!!! So we decided, after having lunch with papa that we would head out. Well some of us (ME) had to fix their hair so they looked pretty. (What I want to make a good impression) So took the time to do that, print out my resume and then off we went to Effingbird!

And OH MY GOSH!!!! The drifts were horrible! Ok not the whole way, but bad enough, plus snow was being blown around so there was no visibility. As always there were a few jerks on the road. You know the ones, they never drive properly but it's even worse in bad conditions. Yeah they were out in full force. Sad! But mom and I had an alright time, after filling out the app, we headed to Wally world for some stuff, she got stuff for her valentines and a new cd, I got stuff for Missy's baby shower and some new books. YAY BOOKS!!! We jammed out to Coldplay on the way home (New cd ya know?)

All in all a somewhat busy time I've had. It's a good thing I don't have a job yet cause I would have been swamped!! But I do hope I get one soon!!!

Please hire me places I'm applying too!! PLEASE!!!

Oh and just for fun... here are a couple of the pics from out camera session!! Heehee!!

(I include them both so you can see both of the lovely girls!!)

Again I am a slacker

2009-01-28T07:31:00.003-06:00

So I was 'hired' to clean!! That's right I'm going to be a maid (really it's a job and I NEED one!)

But this darned beautiful snow.

Don't get me wrong I love snow! I mean I really love it! I would enjoy watching it fall all day long, but it makes it hard to get out. Heck even my poor brother couldn't get more than two car lengths down the drive. So how am I supposed to get my cleaning gig?? Huh!!

That's right! I can't! So I shall instead, sit here in the comfort of our home and try and find ways to entertain my self. Movies, games perhaps, internet and always the ol' standby reading.

So yeah, I'm slacking.... but I have too! Nature dictates it.

Curious.... very curious

2009-01-27T04:29:00.003-06:00

Just a random request...

Mainly for Lilo, it was after all, her in the scenario.

Can people not have me for their maid-of-honor and force me to take part in some ritual to bring unity and purification to their wedding/vows by 'hunting' Bigfoot in an industrial area with only laser tag equipment?? A Bigfoot I might add that looked like 'Harry and the Henderson's' big foot but was really really mean and evil, I mean this Bigfoot wanted to take us out and all we had were little puny toy guns that shot lasers that only registered on a few 'safe' dots on a small chest covering Bigfoot was wearing?? Not only all of that but can the blasted thing not, not not, not not be led by my former team leader Scott???

Thank you and have a nice day!

ps. have I ever mentioned on here how very very weird my dreams can be?? Perhaps that's pertinent information too know. Ya know... for like the future and stuff.

pps. that was only a small portion of the dream too... the most pertinent part in my opinion at least for my blog today that is.

Well! Aint that a -----!

2009-01-22T08:44:00.003-06:00

It's amazing what can change in the space of an hour....

The good mood is gone!!

Long gone!!

I hate twists of fate... Ok not all twists of fate but this latest one was a low blow and it makes me quite sad!!

Good bye job *sniff*

'And the pain shall be lifted from them....'

2009-01-22T07:54:00.004-06:00

Just a shorty here...

Just wanted to say...

I'm happy.

Very happy.

The pain has abated.

I am comfortable with the guys, and the work.

I am happy!

That's all.

A very feeble 'yippee' for me...

2009-01-20T08:14:00.000-06:00

So today... last night?!?! How to put it... I guess last night.

So last night at work was much better.

No shouting matches!
My 'job' was switched a little.
And I got to know the guys I work with a little better.

For precaution, I took some Back and Body pain meds before going to try and help the minor soreness I was experiencing. It really did the trick. I felt really good when I got to work. Ready to go!

Did a lot of the same stuff, but now, as per Robbie's ( supervisor ) orders I'm to mainly put in shelves and drawers. So really I rarely and I do mean rarely have to hang doors. And oddly enough my favorite kind to deal with were the corner cabinet doors. You only have to shove the top three and bottom hinges together, no adjusting the door... no screws involved. Not so bad really. (Their downfall is that they are again really tall doors) So pretty much everything else was clips, shelves, a few screws, maybe a short door or two and even fewer big doors.

All in all not so bad of a night.

We also had quite a bit of down time tonight, a drill broke... or something (???) Anyway due to that we had time to pretty much just sorta chat and try and look busy. You know, sweeping, filling bins, taking out the trash... that sort of thing. Anyway got to know them all a little better. Which is nice. Now I don't feel so awkward.

Ah... but the result of such a night...... MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME!!!! My lower back too... but only a little. I haven't done this much squatting in... oh yeah... NEVER!!!

So very very sore. And rather worn out. My last cabinet was just going south in a hurry. I didn't hardly have the energy to raise the shelves into their clips. It was rather sad. But I got them all in and then it was time to go!! Horrah!!! (Oops, did I leave the doors and locks for someone else to put in??? Yeah I did, but the guys told me it was ok... *in my defense*)

So now, I'm typing this up while I'm still up. I am going to try and go see about setting the timer to record the inauguration *sigh*, take some more back and body drugs and Off to la la land I go!!!

Hopefully tomorrow will go even better... *fingers crossed*

Boo and HUGE Tears for me.....

2009-01-19T05:18:00.000-06:00

I have chosen this sickly green color because I feel it matches me...

Work was a dud... or I was a dud at work... that makes more sense.

I'm feeling very down in the mouth at the moment.

A more pathetic creature I have never known than myself.

Ok so maybe there were a few things that factored into the whole mess but really.... I am still pathetic.

Tonight was the night!! It was the big show. And I blew it.... in so many ways did I blow it!

First I set myself up somewhat for puniness...(is that a real word?? If not it should be!) I didn't eat supper before I went to work tonight. Mistake numero uno!

Second they set me up by giving me a task that I am apparently unable to do (who knew I was such a weakling... not I) My job was to mainly attach doors to really tall cabinets.

Let me describe this in detail to you... thus you understand fully why this is beyond my abilities.
The cabinets are definitely more that six feet tall. (or maybe they are right at 6' ft) The doors to these cabinets are no light weight things, they are in fact quite substantial. The process for hanging these doors is thus: Hold the stinkin heavy door with one hand while supporting it on one foot, aligning the hinges with screws (that hopefully you don't need to install because we didn't take the time for that step) Ok now that the hinges are aligned with those screws we need to screw those screws in!! (it's in their nature to want to be screwed... it's what they are) Ok so take the air powered screwdriver (oh I hope you switched that from air nozzle to screwdriver cause well other wise you need to set down the door and we'll have to start all over) and let it rip! Show those screws who's boss..... what they aren't going into the hole?? Hmmm?? Well imagine that... that's because we can't just have the screws go readily into their holes, Oh no no no no no no.... You have to use force on those suckers... really push hard to get it to go! Got it??? You have that door hung yet???

Yeah!!! Exactly!!! I mean... ok so I am apparently a weenie... I mean I can lift the doors just fine, I can even hold them in place for someone else... but I can NOT hold it in place one handed/footed while using lots of force with the other hand to push the cabinet away from me. I just CAN'T!!! I'm sad and puny but there it is!!! Also somewhat in my defense I am rather short (5'6" ish?? Maybe 5'7" not tall here kids) and those cabinets are tall.... or maybe they just seemed extra tall considering the awkwardness I was in! But still they are taller than me and trying to tighten a screw that's above your head under those conditions is very very hard! (at least for me)

Ok and another thing, it wasn't bad, but the place has a certain...... shall we say odor? It's the laminate, plus glue, plus ply-whatsit lacquer thinner or whatever. The smell (which I'll admit I can easily get used too) was a bit of a surprise, an unpleasant one at that.

So I choose the sickly green color because while I had been keeping up fairly well, not setting any speed records here, I suddenly felt it... it was going to happen.....Something that hasn't happened in many years, so you could have forgotten what it feels like. But you don't. You can never forget what it feels like when it happens

Oh ok FINE! I admit it.... I THREW UP, tossed my cookies, ate in reverse, shouted at the floor. Take your bloody pick!! But there it is.... Not only that but in front of... oh let's face it everyone!

Ok not everyone everyone... but all the guys that I will most likely have to work with, not to mention my team leader AND supervisor!! Can it get worse than that?? Anything else to make everything more mortifying?? Oh how about the fact that I didn't want to throw up in front of everyone so I tried to hold it in... and failed *GROSS WARNING HERE* so there was a little on my shirt (only good thing, it was mostly liquid that time, ONLY good thing).

'That time?' you ask... oh my dear dear friends... there was more than one shouting match held.... luckily all the others were in the bathroom (THANK GOD!!)

If it hadn't be so mortifying, I might have laughed at the look on the faces of my team leader and supervisor. It was like they didn't quite know what to do... help the person who is throwing up... keep well out of the way... choices choices.

I am just so....... what's the word.... disappointed ( I guess that works ) I mean what a way to start your new job that you are so desperately needing. ( ok no real bills to speak of although I'm sure mom would like to be repaid and receive reimbursement on that whooping text bill) Not to mention jobs aren't exactly up for grabs right now... I was really lucky to get this one.

Let's just all hope and pray that 1. I feel better tomorrow, 2. There are no repeat performances and 3. Nothing worse happens next time I'm there.

I mean really..... what could be worse.... (course now that I say that.........)

Why oh why did tonight have to be such a complete and TOTAL failure??

Horrah for me!!

2009-01-15T13:35:00.000-06:00

That's right this is all about the greatness of me....

Ok you caught me.

It's not all about the greatness of me... I'm not so sure that type of statement can even apply to me. I mean seriously... Greatness of ME?!?! I think not.

But to get back on track here... I do feel very 'horrah for me' right now, not so much of anything I did. No no no... it's because of what I now get to do.

That's right kiddies... I have a job!! FINALLY!!! I know, I know... I've taken my sweet time about it! Ok not entirely my fault. I've applied at multiple places and they just didn't show an interest. But (and thanks goes to many people for this) Stevens Industries Inc. wants me and I'm excited!

Thanks Lily for perjuring your self on my behest. Thanks Stevens people for wanting me in the first place. And.... Well.... Heck why not thanks to me huh?? I mean I'm the one that had to keep applying her self even though she kept receiving rejections... and I had to pass that stupid pee test, that's right no drugs for me!!! By the by I HATE those things... It's not so much the having to pee it's that guys are much more equipped for that sort of thing. And well let's face it, they are a little teeny tiny bit embarrassing. But ya know what?? It's worth it!!

Cause I have a job!!

I have A job!!

I HAVE a job!!!

I have a JOB!!! I don't think there are any other ways to express my excitement over the whole thing.

I can go out and randomly buy clothes now if the need strikes me.

I can pay for more schooling... which ick but it's a necessary evil.

I can even horde...er... save up all my money and maybe one day buy my self something real real nice!

The options are limitless!

My excitement knows no bounds.

.......

But we'll see how I feel after the first few days... I've been out of the work loop for a while.

And then we'll see how I feel in about six months.

Still.....

I have a job!

Now if only that really great guy would get around to introducing himself....................

So I'm slacking...

2008-12-19T01:33:00.001-06:00

It's not my fault! Really it's not. I mean when the same things happen day in and day out what is there to blog about? (I'm speaking in rhymes)

So I thought to my self *as I frequently do* "Self what can we possibly blog about?"

Then I visited some of my favorite bloggers and read what they are talking about.

Turns out it's pretty simple. Most were talking about what they are thankful for. Makes sense to me seeing as it's Christmas time, a very nostalgic time of year. Leads one to reminisce and well.... be thankful.

Why couldn't I have been so clever as to think of this on my own??

*sigh* Oh well at least the thought is there now right? Right!

So what am I thankful for.

My loving family, even if they do try and make me watch National Lampoons Christmas Vacation.

My loving friends, even if they are leaving me the only one in a very very single status.

Our warm home. Good food. Beautiful Christmas decorations. Funny blogs. Fun online friends. Holiday cheer. Cute holiday movies. Fun times shopping with my family. Happy memories of holidays past. Hopeful dreams of holidays to come.

I think my favorite christmas memory and sadly my memory is failing a bit so it's not even one hundred percent clear, is the one where we had a ton of snow. Or so it seemed at least! We lived in our house on Walnut street and there are 5 or 6 semi-steep stairs that lead to the front porch. We scooped all the snow to one side of the stairs and packed it down nice and smooth. It was perfect! A million times better than any hill. Don't get me wrong sledding down a huge hill with a nice snowbank at the bottom for you to plow into is always great fun. But those stairs... HEAVEN! We ran up and down them all day! You slid down them so fast and then you only had to run up a few stairs to sled back down again. No trudging up a hill that takes 5 minutes to reach the top of and only 5 seconds to sled down. Not to mention that snow, having been packed down lasted at least two days! The best idea ever!! Now I'm not saying go out and cover half of your stairs with snow... in all truth it's probably not the safest thing we've ever done.

But it was by far one of the most fun! I think that was also the year we kind of made an igloo... all the snow piled up from the drive being cleared we just tunneled in... but I'm not sure. But I DO know that sledding was AWESOME!

So... look at that. A nice long blog update. And not a picture to be seen. All it took was a little inspiration from some great blogger authors!

But don't let me have all the fun.... What's your holiday thankful list, wish list, favorite memory?

I bet you have fun just thinking about it!

Finally! It's craft hour!

2008-12-10T15:59:00.000-06:00

So it's finally time to get these Christmas crafting down! It's taken me just about forever to get this on here. I had a hard time getting these photos on here but finally success is mine!!

Ok so there are three 'projects' if you want to call them that. They were pretty easy, although I only did one of them.

First we have a snowflake wreath. Second a button christmas tree. Third wooden letters spelling 'JOY'.

This is the one that I did. I just saw the supplies in a scrapbook store that my mom and I like to go too (Daisylane for those who wish to know. Mattoon Il) What I bought was the circle background and then there were several different types of cut outs to choose from. Seeing as it's christmas I went with the snowflakes. I paints the circle front and back a metallic blue and the snowflakes got a good covering of off white paint. Once everything was dry I used glue dots to apply the flakes to the wreath background. I went with the dots because they gave me the option of even more of a 3-D look. I rather like how it turned out, although I do wish I had went ahead and purchased the second pack of flakes just to fill everything out more. Ah well live and learn yes??

This is one my mom did. She saw pictures of it on another blog and thought 'Hey I can do that!' and so she did. She started by picking out some buttons. Next she glued the bottom couple rows on and used pushpins to hold them in place. Next she glued the rest on at random dispersing red and white buttons on it for the look of ornaments. On the very top she happened to have a white star button that she stacked on top of a couple green round ones. We let it sit over night just to be certain that the glue was dry, though you could just use pushpins then no dry time necessary. The little ornament girl next to the tree was just to perfect. Mom collects 'Precious Moments' and all the winter ones are set out for the holidays.

These were also mom's idea. These are just wooden letters that mom bought, again at Daisylane. Paper and embellishments too for that matter. The paper is the same paper she is using for her christmas cards which makes them extra special. I really like the paper cause it almost has a retro vibe. I just like it even more. Obviously she cut the paper to fit the letters. Then she added metal snowflake embellishments. There is also ribbon at the top of the 'j' and bottom of the 'y'. But she did think that was quite enough. So using her cricut she cut out holly leaves and berries. Just for a plash more color.

These were just some simple and fairly quick craft projects we did to help spruce up the house for the holidays. You can do these easy projects too if you want for any type of place to decorate. Whether it be home, work, or church even. They can also be adapted for multiple situations.

What fun things will you do to make the holidays special??

Oh how the time flies...

2008-12-09T12:22:00.000-06:00

So my plan had been to update quickly about the fun craft projects that my mum and I did. And then......

Frankly I don't know what happened.

I do know I've been sick for almost a week now. That's not so much fun. But the thing is that it wasn't exactly something that kept me in bed unable to move or anything.

In fact I went wedding dress shopping with one of my friends, it was fun helping her find her dress. It's very pretty and is so her. None of us really thought she'd like it (L included) but it was exactly what she was looking for.

Before that we had one of our Friday night jam sessions! Always a good time.

And before that..... let's see I spent a day at my mum's school. Some of the other ladies who work there had been sick and they needed a stand in. It was actually pretty fun. Cute kids!

But that's just three days accounted for this past week. What else have I done with my time?? Nothing! Not one darn thing.

I guess I was just being lazy.

Well no more!!

Seeing as this has run somewhat long (me and all my excuses) I'll do another post following this.... FINALLY covering the craft projects!

Until then!

Ok so really...

2008-11-30T01:32:00.001-06:00

It's been several days since I've blogged. Not a huge deal. But that means that several of the things that I'm going to be talking about will have happened several days after the fact.

So first things first...

The tree! It's up! It's decorated and it looks great!

Ok so that is a tree that I helped my mom decorate for a tree decorating contest. It's still really cute! We decorated that tree this past Wensday(26th see it really is past the fact)

This is our tree.

The before....(we couldn't find the tree topper. this was put up on Friday 28th)

The after...(much better! finally finished on Saturday 29th)

The underneath?!? (our cat LOVES lying under the tree! It's like he thinks he's the best christmas gift!)

We also decorated the rest of the house. Mom collects snowmen... and it just always seem to be that when anyone knows that you collect something they feel this need to go out and find you the weirdest, most unique piece they can find. (We have some weird ones)

Here is some of the fam on Thanksgiving day.

We had a mini Thanksgiving on the actual day. The Saturday before was my mom's side of the family Turkey day and the Wensday before was my dad's side. So we had a mini one at home on the actual day of Turkey-dom! (Not only that but we didn't even have actual turkey that day... we had ham! Mmmm ham!)

Well I'll tell more about all the happenings around here later... Got to have something to blog about.

Just a heads up.... Get ready for Craft Time!!

O tannenbaum, o tannenbaum...

2008-11-24T13:45:00.000-06:00

Doesn't it seem weird that I've been so excited about this holiday and I'm who was the most eager to put up a tree and now of all my friends I'm the only one who STILL doesn't have a tree up?!?!

I've helped decorate two trees and I'm supposed to help mom decorate one tomorrow for a Christmas tree contest type thing they are holding at the library.

*SIGH*

Not only that but everyone has blogged about their trees and... well I guess I've talked about trees but I haven't gotten to talk about "OUR" tree.

*BIGGER SIGH*

The upside is that we are perhaps putting it up this week.

Downside?!?!

That means that I have to clean the whole house.. BLAH!!!! Anyone want to come help?

I don't know what it is I have no problem helping to clean other's houses but when it comes to my space I just hate doing it. But I'm probably not alone in that.

Anyway here's hoping that I'll soon have a tree of my own to brag about.

Still sad that I'm the last one to get one up though.

Thanksgiving...

2008-11-23T01:06:00.001-06:00

Ok so due to people having to work on actual Thanksgiving day my family had thanksgiving today! It was of course, wonderful!

Food-Delish!

Company-Fantastic!

Games-A Riot!

Time had-PRICELESS!!!

We also decorated my grandmother's christmas tree, loads of fun and loads of ornaments. I guess though that she's lead a very full happy life which leaves lots of great memories to be commemorated.

The only downer to this thanksgiving was even though we couldn't have it on the actual date because of work conflicts... there were still family members that couldn't make it. Sad :( but it was great none the less!

The other fun and wonderful thing that I did today was FINALLY getting to see 'Twilight'

Needless to say it was WONDERFUL!!!!

See my friend's blog for full details on why we didn't see it yesterday...click here... Suffice it to say I HATE stupid people!!! Sorry it's true... well.... I at least hate stupidity!!

Not that anyone would doubt it being great, I'm sure! It was just great to finally see it! We've read the books and they are such extremely well written books that when word was out that there was to be a movie we were STOKED!

The movie is a masterpiece!! It's so well done! Not only is it beautiful (hard not to be when in such a lush environment) but it's got some really great acting. They did a great job staying true to the book, it followed it nearly to the letter. If you've seen the book it's a whopper. So for the director and screenplay writer to condense it into a 2 hour movie is in it's self quite the feat. The only way in which it deviated was some small added in parts and they were done in such a way that it was as if it could have been written in anyway.

All in all a GREAT movie!

Only downer to the movie was what we went through the night before(not the movie's fault) and the theater where we saw(yes same place that gave us so much guff) had a few problems with their projector. The reel cut out two (almost three) times. Once was during the previews, not a big deal other than the fear that the movie wouldn't be playing, but the second was during the actual film. But they got it up and running again in no time and nothing was lost for the mishap.
The almost third time was during the credits and most people don't even stay around for those(my friend and I do though and I would have been a little bummed) but it didn't so no harm no foul.

So suffice it to say... My Thanksgiving was great and I have a TON to be thankful for.

(Can't wait for the actual day... I think the other side of the fam is getting together.... I do love my Thanksgiving meals!!!)